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♥ Florence, over-hyperactive. I (L) eating chocolates, and I'm a klutz,as well as a trouble-maker :D I'm fourteen, and July the 15th would be awesome. I love being cheeky and childish. That's the part of me that'll never grow up. I have a mind of a five-year-old and I love putting a smile on people's faces. So if you're down, I'm always here. Netball's my passion, and I'm loving it. I'm hoping for fairytales and miracles to happen ^^. I may be naive at times, but you can't cheat me. Currently attached with baby♥, and still counting on. I'm tremendously spontaneous and hyperactive most of the times. I love sweet things, they simply melt my heart. Equal Equation, L'ove.

I would have given you all of my heart,
but there's someone whose torn it apart.

It hasn't been the most ideal week of the holidays that I expected. Sorry for the lack of update, been busy with trainings, outings and stufffffs. It feels like one of the longest week I've had for now. Hah...I thought this holiday would be great, and everything would turn out right, but I was proven wrong again.

I don't know what to blog, basically. I don't know if I should just vent all my frustrations here, 'cause it doesn't seem appropriate to say the things here, about the current situation we're in, that I'm in.

I feel depressed, upset, frustrated, jealous, incompetent, emotional, and everything else. Like the whole world's crashing down, and all I have is just myself to face the things, that could be my worst nightmares. Where promises get broken, and hearts gets shattered, and it feels like you're walking on glass pieces. I feel like I'm a roller coaster ride, and its going faster and faster, without letting me catch my breath. And everything around me feels so broken and jagged, that hurts you alot. I feel like I'm a merry-go-round, getting spinned round and round like I'm used. My heart's lost, my burning desire's gone, the future seems bleak, my trust's broken, my heart's in a million pieces, my faith's gone. Tears are shed, because the truth always hurts.

I feel so wrong, like I don't belong. I don't know if I should stay...or I should leave... I feel so confused, and I feel so...frustrated at times. What's the real source of the problem, I really don't know. I've done everything that I'm able to, and I've even done things that are out of my range for you. But I really don't know what you want, what you expect. Is all of this not enough? I feel so frustrated, 'cause you make me feel so incompetent, make me feel so useless towards other people who you show interest in. I feel at lost, bring me back, will you? Tell me, what you want, what I'm supposed to do. Because, I'm losing faith, and I'll break.

I haven't have the guts to say alot of things...'Cause I don't have the heart to hurt you. Cause I know the truth always hurts. You always ask me why, I don't tell you how I really feel. This is the reason why. I'm a person, who avoids things that I think / might hurt another. I really don't have the heart to, even if I really want to, even if the opposite's my enemy. I can't. I'm a coward, if people put it more in a way of speaking, I am. I avoid things that I think might hurt. I avoid to believe in myself, which makes me more guillable, 'cause I'd rather trust others, when I know so much that perhaps I shouldn't. I don't stand up for myself, I can't. I can't vent out my feelings by shouting at another, 'cause I'd end up crying. I'd rather take the blame, then shout out how I really feel. I keep my feelings to myself, 'cause I feel that its wrong to say, or tell others how I feel about them. I'm afraid to tell the truth, 'cause I'm afraid that, the other might cry. I'm afraid to hurt the other, 'cause my heart would start blaming myself, and I would feel indebted to that person. I'm afraid of saying the wrong things, 'cause I'm afraid it might exacerbate things. I'm afraid, to give my own opinions, 'cause I have no confidence in myself, that it would be work-able, or good. This is how I am, now you know. You realise, I always don't vent out my feelings, face-to-face, do you ?


Its been 10 days since I last posted. I shall update more if I have the time. Because now, I really don't have the mood to. I feel like everything would come crashing down soon enough. I'm not strong enough, I know that. I can't take the blows that are coming to me, soon enough. I don't understand the mechanics of life and love, 'cause its really complex. Well, I don't know if I don't know, but yeah. I've lost everything I have, sacrificed everything I have to love.I gave you my heart, But now, what do I get in return? I. DON'T. UNDERSTAND. I feel frustrated and upset, bottom line.
I love you, don't do this to me.
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Every strike of lightning,
comes with a memory that lasts.

I'm back from the longest day of shopping I've had. Well, not really, I guess. But this is the only time, where I really really shopped for the whole day with mum, :D Haha. Walked the whole Orchard Road man! Tiring legs, and my leg's sprained ! Its okayyyyy, won't be attending training tomorrow, or my leg would break off furthur. Din't tell parents of my leg though, or else I'll probably be banned from doing stuff till my leg's fully recovered, like hell, :D Haaaaaahs. Alright, I shall do this quiz from NingYi's blog, :D Haha, kinda bored, xD

Rules : Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR :

1. Last beverage : Plain Water, :D
2. Last phone calls : Daddyyyyyy, :D
3. Last text message : L'ove, :D
4. Last song you listened to : Paranoid - Jonas Brothers.
5. Last time you cried : A few weeks ago ? I'm not sure.

HAVE YOU EVER :

6. Dated someone twice : I'm not sure if it counts.
7. Been cheated on : I'm not sure about this too, I think.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : Nope, :D
9. Lost someone special : Definitely, I'm losing everyone, D:
10. Been depressed : Yeapppppppp.
11. Been drunk & threw up : Not yetttttttt, ^^v.

LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS :
12. Rainbowwwww colours, :D
13. Blackkkkkkkkkk, and whiteeeeeee, :D
14. Bright & eye-catching colourrrrrrrs, :D

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU : (2009)
15. Made a new friend : Yeapppppp, :D
16. Fallen in love : I dooooooo, every single timeeeeeeee, :D
17. Laughed until you cried : Ummm, yeappppppppp, haha, :D
18. Met someone who changed you : Definitelyyyyyyyy,^^v.
19. Found out who your true friends were : Oh, definitelyyyyyy. A confirm-confirm.
20. Found out someone was talking about you : They always do.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list : Nope, don't think so.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life : 99 percent of them, :D
23. How many kids do you want : Prolly 2, a girl and a guyyyyy, :D Haha, don't know yet.
24. Do you have any pets : I used to.
25. Do you want to change your name : Nopeeeeeeeee, :D
26. What did you do for your last birthday : Eatttttttttttt, :D Haaaaaaaahs, and lots more,^^v.
27. What time did you wake up today : Round 9 plus.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night : Chatting with L'ove.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for : Haha, there are loads of things, :D
30. Last time you saw your mother : Currentlyyyyy, :D
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : Mmm...my flaws :D
32. What are you listening to right now : Fly with me - Jonas Brothers.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : Nope, don't think so.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now : Something, I don't know what. Can't figure.
35. Most visited website : Haha, youtube^^v.
36. What's your real name : Florence, ♥. Heeeeeees, :D
37. Nicknames : Flora, Flower, Florist. Yeappppp, :D
38. Relationship status : Currentlyyyyyy, attached, :D
39. Zodiac sign : I'mma pig, :D
40. Male or Female : Femaleeeeee ! :D
41. Primary School : Hougang Primary, :D
42. Secondary School : Tampines Secondaryyyyyyyy ! :D
43. High School / College : Not yetttttttt. Aiming ! ^^.
44. Hair Colour : Mixed, black & brown, :D
45. Long or short : Long.
46. Height : 162 - 165 ? Around there. Forgot.
47. Do you have a crush on someone : Alwayyyyyyyyyys haveeeee, :D
48. What do you like about yourself : The way I can make people smile / laugh, :D Haha.
49. Piercings : 2.
50 : Tattoos : Nopeeeeee.
51 : Righty or lefty : Rightyyyyyyyy, ^^v.

FIRSTS :
52 : First surgery : I din't do anyyyyy, :D
53 : First piercing : Ummm, I was 5 or older. Haha, tricked by parents for ear piercingggg,evil^^v.
54 : First best friend : Singtel or Melissa. Haha, seriously ! Can't rmbr. & Singtel's not the phone brand ! Its seriously someone ! :D
55 : First sport you joined : Track & Field, :D I wantttttt. Sadly, school's notttttttt available.
56 : First vacation : Malaysiaaaaaa.
58 : First pair of trousers : I don't know !

RIGHT NOW :
59 : Eating : Nothinggggg.
60 : Drinking : Nothingggggg.
61 : I'm about to : End this shitttt, :D
62 : Listening to : Nice piece of art - FM Static.
63 : Waiting for : The bathroom, :D

YOUR FUTURE :
64: Want Kids ? : Yeapppppp, I alreadyyyy said sooooo, ^^v.
65 : Get married : Haha, definitelyyyyy. Already sorta planned, haha, :D
66 : Career : Yeappppp, but its undecided on what I wanna be.. :D

WHICH IS BETTER :
67 : Lips or Eyes : Both, :D Haha.
68 : Hugs or Kisses : Both ! :D Haha.
69 : Shorter or taller : Taller. ( Haha, narrowwwww rightttt. )
70 : Older or younger : I don't know, haha.
71 : Romantic or spontaneous : Both, I guess, haha, :D
72 : Nice stomach or nice arms : Both, ^^v.
73 : Sensitive or loud : I don't knowwww, a little of both ?
74 : Hook-up or relationship : Haha, ummmmm. A little of both ? But I'd prefer relationship, :D
75 : Trouble maker or hesitant : More to trouble maker, :D Haha.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76 : Kissed a stranger : Nopeeeee.
77 : Drank hard liquor : Nope, :D
78 : Lost glasses / contacts : Not really, nope, :D
79 : Sex on the first date : Definitely not, :D Haha^^v.
80 : Broken someone's heart : Yes, and I'm still sorry..
82 : Been arrested : No, haha.
83 : Turned someone down : Yes.
84 : Cried when someone died : Yes, &
85 : Fallen for a friend : Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN :
86 : Yourself : Sort of, haha, :D
87 : Miracles : Hardly, but yeah.
88 : Love at first sight : Yeappppp, :D
89 : Heaven : Mmm...Sorta, ^^.
90 : Santa Claus : I used to.
91 : Kiss on the first date : Haha, idk, xD Maybe on the cheeks ? xD
92 : Angels : Haha, probably.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
94 : Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time : Nope.
95 : Did you sing today : Yeah, haha.
96 : Ever cheated on somebody : Nope.
97 : If you could go back in time, how far would you go back : The start of this year, :D
98 : If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be ? : Haha, idk, xD
99 : Are you afraid of falling in love : Truthfully, yes. But it wavers. Sooo, half-half aye, :D Haha.
100 : Posting this as 100 truths : This is the 100 truths, :D There ! :D

♥,xoxo.
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I know this isn't what I wanted,
I never thought it'd come this far.

Haaaaaaaaahs, the above pictures are for laughs, :D But its seriously awesome, :D Haha, its quite true in fact, haha. Anyway, I shall continue my update from the previous post.

`071109, Saturday.
Didn't do much, I guess. Couldn't remember much, but L'ove accompanied me through the whole day, when I was like missing him so much. Like my oxygen was gone, seriously, :D Haha, it was a sweet day, :D Chatted with L'ove late into the night, 'bout one plus, hahs, :D

`081109, Sunday.
Happy 20th Anniversary L'ove ! :D Haha, let's last longggggggg^^v. I'm always here, :D Haha, okayyyy. I shan't say much mushy stufffffff, xD
Anyway, went out to eat and stufffff. Haha, then in the later part of the day, L'ove went to Malaysia, hence, I was lonely. But anyway, went out to shoppp at night. Bought stuff, but I didn't buy anything, :D Haha, I'm so obssessed with something,^^v. Okayy, that's all for that day. Slept around one plus again, while chatting with L'ove, :D :D

Had training yesterday! God, tiring. Haha, okay larhs, not so bad. I loved the weather ! :D It was cooling, though it was dark, but yeah. Anyway, had fun for the first part of the training, but I sprained my ankle when they were playing court game soon. Man, it hurts so much ! And then coach helped me to the shelter, and I sat there to rot, cause of my stupid leg. I wanted to play so much. Sadly, after training, went off. Yay! We're having a barberque chalet ! :D Haha, during the last week of December. Haha, then maybe can count down together ! :D Haha, awwwwww. I can't wait ! :D Anyway, went home, iced my leg, secretly. Didn't wanna tell parents, cause they would restrict me to do stuff, like going out. But I can walk, just that it hurts, that's all. Haha, okayyy. Slept past midnight, while chatting with L'ove. Man, I miss him so much, :D Haha, we'll be meeting up soon. I'm sorry I couldn't make it today. I need to go out with my mum, equals to breaking my leg furthur for shopping the whole day, haha.

Alrights, I shall go off nowwwwwww, :D Its been a long post. And I want to, like do some stuff that's meaningfullll. Haha, I should start getting to clear my room, but I'm kinda lazy everytime I see the mess made, =X Haha, okay. Till here then. Haha, I love the above pictures ! :D Enjoyyyyyyyyy ! :D
♥,xoxo.

P.S./ Babyyyyyyy, imissyou.
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And I know that if I just stay strong I can make it,
And try harder when I just can't take it .

I'm feeling bored, dead dead bored. I've been home alone, the whole day. Well, literally. I'm almost bored till my entire brain ain't working properly, 'cause I haven't used it for one whole day already. Haha, that's so ironic. And! I think there's something wrong with me nowwwwww. I'm just so hungry. ALL.THE.TIME. Haha, and I just keep eating and eating and eating. But I never gain weight. Cool huh. There's training tomorrow, which equals to burning more calories. I think I'll never be of the weight, that is counted as, acceptable to one.

Alright, I shall update about the wonderful week I had last week now. Well, it could have been one of the best weeks of my life. Or days. Haha, it totally rocked, and was the most...awesome/sweet/heart-melting/cool/great/etc, you get what I mean^^v. Haha. Alright, let's start, :D

`041109, Wednesday.
Okayy, so this was the day to go out and buy the awesome food for the awesome people for the awesome chalet. Haha, okay. Sooooooooo, met L'ove in the morning first. Went to his house, haaaaaaahs. Awwwwwww, he was like so cute, :D Haha, okayyyyy. Then after that, the usual stuff^^v. Not gonna elaborate. And then, Justin came back from school. L'ove cooked, and we all started hanging out. And after waiting for L'ove to get his lunch done, we went off to meet the rest - Mistika, Justin, ShiLi, Dexter, YuHeng, Sihui. (Sorry if I missed anyone out, but I think this should be it ! ) Anyway, after that, on the way, saw Hakeem. God, he didn't realised it was me. Talked, and then went off. Hung out with L'ove most of the times. Haha, after that, we paid for the stuff and went out. God, I was starving to death, that I almost fainted. Bought a chocolate then, scarved it down. Haha, after that, we went to Ikea. Bonding session, pfffffft, ^^v. Haha. We went to sat at the cafe and started to buy stuff, drinks, rather and chat and stuff about the chalet. Then! At around five plus, went off. Cabbed to Tampines interchange, 'cause was rushing for time. Haha. Something embarrassing happened then, ahhas. Well, something of the sort. ShiLi said something, that I think pissed the driver off, xD Haha. Then went homeeeee. Tiredddd, but worth it^^v.

`051109, Thursday.
Ah! Today was the best day of my life, :D Haha, yesyes. But also, kinda unlucky day to have cramps killing me in the wee hours of the morning. Anyway, went out in the morning, to meet L'ove again. He was late! Haha, always make me wait lorhs, and made me late for training. Haha, but luckily, the rest didn't reach yet toooooo. Had cramps throughout training, god. Almost fainted, and died. The cramps killed me totally. But after that, got hyper and started forgetting about it. And played, :D Haha. Okayy, then met Ali and Rizan at Simei there tooooo. Haha, they're hilarious, ^^v. Anyway, we headed to Pasir Ris then. Reached, and then Atikah and the rest showered. I didn't, 'cause I didn't feel like. Felt like showering after I eat. I was starving to death again, I think I really killed my gastrics these few days. Then, headed to the chalet. God, I miss those people, :D Haha. Was super tired but high. Haha, like some kid, jumping around. Then ate a little, and showered, 'cause I couldn't stand my sweat ! Then, started eating and drinking again. Took photos, :D Haha. Then heard something about what Mistika did in the afternoon^^v. Haha, :D Alright, then Miss Tan and Miss Shanthi arrived. Talked about next year, the classes allocation and stuff. And had loads of fun and laughter. Later in the night, about 2130 hours or so, L'ove and I decided to take a walk. Walked into Pasir Ris Park, and it was like dark. Haha. And it was like so cool. The beach's scenery was awesome, and so beautiful. There were like lights across the sea, haaaaaahs. Such a nice atmosphere. But the toads were making.. loud and kinda creepy sounds, which somehow spoils the quiet night. Then we walked. Haha, awwwwwwwww. Then we started talking about loads of stuff. And we talked real much larhs, all the way. And we walked for who knows, how long. But we walked from one end to another. Tiring legs. Haha, but on the way, we saw a few couples making out, haha. In the dark corners of the park, but we sorta interrupted them, =X Haha, sorryyyyy, :D
Then after that we decided to go back, and go back to that spot we always go in the later part of the night, and the early early hours of the morning. So yeah. Then everyone was playing cards and stuff. And hung out in the chalet then.

`061109, Friday.
Till 0100 hours plus, we walked through the park again. Okay, till here. The details are...personal. Haha, but it was a memorable two days. The best I've ever had, :D haha, and the best class chalet I've ever had ! :D Haha, I love the 5th and 6th November, oh so very much. 'Cause they are highly memorable. Haha. Okayy, so then, in the morning at around 1030 hours, we checked out. Then went to eat at Pasir Ris Macs with L'ove. Then we headed to Bugis. Heeeees, bought toys, :D Haha. Then we went to walk around, like everywhere. Then went to Suntec. Haha, tired till can't keep my eyes open. Didn't sleep for one whole day ayeee. Okay, only catching a few hours of sleep before. After that, went home. I'm allocated to class 3E2, :D Haha, ideal class^^v. Heeees. Alrights, and then, so yeahhhhh. Haha. That's it for nowwwww.

Okayy, sadly, I can't update anymore. 'Cause Kenny's bugging for the laptop. I shall update again, soon. Gonna concentrate on texting L'ove now, till here then, :D
♥,xoxo.

P.S./ I miss you badly.
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If everything would stop, I'd listen for your heart,
Hold on baby, hold on to my hands.

I saw this while blog hopping, and found this kinda meaningful, and fun, :D Haha, so I decided to repost it. Okayy, here goes, :D

A real boyfriend

When she stares at your mouth, { kiss her } .

When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass 'cause she thinks she's stronger than you,
{ Grab her and don't let go }.

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough, { Kiss her and tell her you love her } .

When she's quiet, { Ask her what's wrong } .

When she ignores you, { Give her your attention } .

When she pulls away, { Pull her back } .

When you see her at her worst, { Tell her she's beautiful } .

When you see her starting to cry, { Just hold her and don't say a word } .

When you see her walking, { Sneak up and hug her waist from behind } .

When she's scared, { Protect her } .

When she steals your favourite hat, { Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night } .

When she teases you, { Tease her back and make her laugh } .

When she doesn't answer for a long time, { Reassure her that everything's okay } .

When she looks at you with doubt, { Back yourself up } .

When she say that she loves you,
{ SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN YOU CAN UNDERSTAND } .

When she grabs at your hands, { Hold hers and play with her fingers }.

When she bumps into you, { Bump into her back and make her laugh } .

When she tells you a secret, { Keep it safe and untold } .

When she looks into your eyes, { Don't look away till she does } .

When she say its over, { She still wants you to be hers } .

When she reposts this bulletin, { she wants you to read it } .

- Stay on the phone with her even if she doesn't say anything.
- When she's mad, hold her tight and don't let go.
- When she say she's okay, don't believe it, talk with her.
- Because 10 years later, she'll remember you.
- Call her at 1200 hours on her birthday to tell her you love her.
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
- Watch her favourite movie with her or her favourite show even though you think its stupid.
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes.
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
- Let her know she's important.
- Kiss her in the pouring rain.
- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is :
" Whose ass am i kicking, baby ? "

Haha, :D Awwwwwwwwwwwww, sweeeeeet right ? Alrights, I shall go off now.
I shall update more about the chalet when I'm free^^v.
♥,xoxo.

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I don't know, if I would lose you.
I don't know, if I should be content with what I had / have.
I don't know, if I should be happy or sad.
I don't know, if I would lose everything I have after this.
I don't know, if everything would still be the same, when this year's gone.
I don't know, which road to take, and where life would lead me to.
I don't know, if I can do things right, in the manner of right in a rightful way.
I don't know, if right now, these memories, can help me pull through long enough.
I don't know, if there would still be anyone there, when everyone's gone in different ways.
I don't know, if our friendships would still be the same, like how we are now.
I don't know, if I can take it again, if I get hurt badly once more.
I don't know, if I can control my feelings, and not try to hurt you.
I don't know, if I can contain my jealousy, and trying not to care over-ly too much.
I don't know, if I can make it to how we used to contemplate about the future.
I don't know, if all these things would really really come true.
I don't know, if I would lose the most important part of my life, after all this.
I don't know, if those sleepless nights would haunt me once again.
I don't know, if things would work out for me, for us.
I don't know, if what I face next year, might not be what I really expect.
I don't know, if I want this part in my life.
I don't know, if what I have, are meant to be kept.
I don't know, if I can keep all my friends together, and keep them close.
I don't know, if I can handle it if something goes terribly wrong again.
I don't know, if I might lose you in the new year to come.
I don't know, if history would repeat itself once more.
I don't know, if I can handle the pain, if you leave.
I don't know, if I can handle another painful year, and pretend like everything's okay.
I don't know, if I can take another year of pretense and tell people everything's fine.
I don't know, if I can do things like I believed and said I can.
I don't know, if my lies to protect the most important thing in my life, would be discovered.
I don't know, if my heart can take heavy blows again.
I don't know, if everything would be alright.
I don't know, if you trust me.
I don't know, if its all true.
I don't know, if I mean everything to you, as much as you do to me.
I don't know, if you know that everything I ever did, was from the bottom of my heart.
I don't know, if I really do have true friends.
I don't know, if I can really trust anyone, 'cause they lie again and again.
I don't know, if I really am stupid and gullible as I can be.
I don't know, if people actually do care.
I don't know, if I can do this again, as I've been doing for the past one year or so.
I don't know, if I can forgive as much, when the suspense's there.
I don't know, if I can make my parents proud.
I don't know, if my dad sees through me.
I don't know, if my dad rather believes my lies than hear the truth 'cause it hurts.
I don't know, if my second brother is ever going to be a good man.
I don't know, if my eldest brother is ever going to set foot on the right path in life.
I don't know, if I would lose my third brother soon, like I've 'lost' my two other older brothers.
I don't know, if I can keep going on.
I don't know, if I have enough new excuses to come up with to cover my lies.
I don't know, if I'm doing the right thing.
I don't know, if I can stand all the lies.
I don't know, if you'll always be mine.
I don't know, if my relatives are doing well.
I don't know, if I should say, that I have a half-broken family, or a full one.
I don't know, if things are supposed to be this way.
I don't know, if I can hold on.
I don't know, why I'm crying as I write this.
I don't know, if you'll always be my love.

But I do know this,
'cause this is the fact, I love you baby♥.



Why did you have to leave this world so early,
cause I really miss you badly.
I miss you, grandpa.
But you're gone...

Don't go away, say you'll stay.
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The course of true love,
never did run smooth.

Okay, I just remembered I was supposed to do a quiz tagged by Yuheng, so I'mma do it nowwwwww, :D

1. What's your full name ?
Florence Lee Dong Qin, :D

2. Do you like your first name ?
Yeapppppppppp, ;D

3. How long have you liked the person you currently like ?
Um, 1 year and 11 months & counting on, :D

4. Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours ?
Yeappppppp, xD

5. Did you cry today ?
Nooooooooooo, I feel so high ^^v.

6. What are you doing this morning at 8am ?
Still in my dreamland, and in my comfy bed, :D

7. What are you doing an hour ago ?
Playing online games, listening to songs, and talking to Kenny, :D Multi-tasker^^v. Haha.

8. What are you currently doing ?
Texting, doing this quiz and listening to songs, :D

9. Who last texted you a message ?
L'ove, :D

10. Have you told anybody you love them today ?
Yeah, I just did, haha, :D

11. Do you miss anyone now ?
I always miss someone, :D

12. Any plans for tomorrow ?
Yeah, play, play and play. 'Cause everyone would be at chalet ! Well, some, at least, :D

13. What was the reason behind the last time you cried ?
Umm. I was losing someone that was very important to me. Everything was slipping and sliding away, I felt depressed and lost, and sad. And I had to lie again and again to my parents that I was alright when the least thing I could do was not to lie to them about other things except the one thing that mattered to me the most that was the thing that they didn't allowed the most.

14. Is there anyone you want to be with now ?
Yeapppppppp, :D

15. Have you kissed anyone who starts with the letter, 'C' ?
HAHA, nooooooooo!

16. Name someone who makes you smile today, how ?
L'ove, haha. He was telling me sweet stufffff, ;D
Kenny, haha. He always never fails to make me laugh, :D

17. Name a friend whose name starts with a 'Z'.
ZiChanggggggggg.

18. Which of the friend stays closest to you ?
Crystal, :D But she's more like a sister though, but still.

19. Do you prefer to call or text ?
That depends. But mostly, text.

20. Was yesterday better than today ?
I can't be sure. Today hasn't really happened yet. But should be not. Haha.

21. Can you live a day without TV and your phone ?
Yeapppppppp, but the phone, I'm not so sure. But should be can, haha.

22. Are you mad about anything now ?
Yes, I'm mad with my hunger pangs.

23. Do you ever think that relationships are worth it ?
Well. I think it is. Because, if they aren't worth it, people wouldn't be sacrificing so much, just to keep a relationship no matter how many obstacles and how hard it is to keep one. And, they wouldn't be upset and heartbroken when love fails to hold them up again.

24. Last person you visited in the hospital ?
I'm not sure... I think it should be my late grandma...

25. When is your last hug and second last hug ?
Yesterday, both from L'ove, :D

26. What does the last text message in your inbox says ?
Haha, its kinda personal, sorrayeeeee, :D

27. How do you feel about your life now ?
I'm content, not to the extent that is fully content, 'cause there are some things that I have lost, and can never have back. But I have all the people I love the most, that are with me...And that's enough...for now.

28. Do you hate anyone ?
Umm, nooooo. I don't hold grudges, seriously, :D Haha.

29. Last person you called ?
Maung Phone, to see if his phone was working, but it wasn't.

30. Who usually sends you the most text in a month ?
L'ove, haha.

31. Is your room messy now ?
Yes, it is very very messy. But I can't keep, yet. 'Cause Kenny's studying for his As. And only things that are messy, that are caused by oneself, can be easily found, :D

32. Who will be mad if your room is messy ?
Haha, no one. But my mum will just say, haha.

33. Your shortest relationship ?
Ah......um, four days.

34. Who do you look like ?
My mum, I suppose. People always say.

35. Tag 10 people to do this quiz.
I shan't burden anyone, just do it if you're bored, :D


Haaaaaaaahs, I'm done with the quiz! Ah...training and class chalet todayyyyyyy ! :D Hahas, I can't wait ! Hmm, that would be lots of fun ! :D Especially at night^^v. Haha! Okay, I'mma go off nowwwww. And yes ! I'm so hoooked on The Maine's songs. Haha, the lead singer is so hot, :D Haha, alrights, till here then. I feel so high, I seriously need help.
♥,xoxo.
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And legs that went on for days.

Heyyyyyy, :D I've finally decided to come update my blog. God, and I think that this is going to be a long post, that I doubt anyone would read. Okayy, I shall update about the last week of school, which didn't really ended off on a very happy note, instead, it ended off with a very sad note, that was caused by me, of course. I always screw things up, I guess.

`271009, Tuesday.
Had the Science thingy. Haha, it was so funnnnnn, :D We had to go off from stations to stations, and it was like so coool. I liked the station that we played with the mentos and coke, :D Haha, it like exploded, and then it was like so cool man. Haha, I guess no one really tried beforehand putting dozens of mentos while drinking coke into your mouth huh, haha. It explodes, :D After that, we had the Malay kite making thingy. Haha, I screwed uppppp. My kite was like, broken. HAHA. Sat with Lesmin during that period, talked alot about the past. Its so funnyyyyyyyy. Haha, and then its like we keep laughing. And the glue that they give to stick the kite together, was like so... I don't know. And ends up, when I paste it on the kite, it broke, cause there were like lumps of glue here and there. Haha.

`281009, Wednesday.
Went to Science Centre for the day. For the Body Worlds and iMax movie thingy. Haha, the movie was so coooool. It was like one whole theatre that you had to lie back and tilt your head to see. It was sort of strenous to the neck, and my neck was aching. And so, watched for like three quarters of the movie, and during the last part, decided to sleep. Sat with L'ove, :D He was so cute. Haha, he slept tooo, during the last part. So funny. Haha, after that, we had to wait for, who knows how long, to go to the Body Worlds exhibition. Took lots of pictures, okay, not really. But yeah. Haha, then went to the exhibition. Its like so fun, and interesting. You see all the body parts and stuff, :D Haha. Then we walked for like over an hour or so, and decided to go out and eat. And then we took class photos and stuff, and went back. Was feeling kind of sick, was having a slight fever. Went home then, Dad was like asking why my face was so pale. And then I told him I was sick, and then he was like, giving me this, half-pity-half-laughing look. Haha, then I smacked him with little energy I could manage and went to rest. Couldn't sleep, so watched DvDs, :D Re-watched Reaper again. I want to watch Season Two and Season Three ! If there is.

`291009, Thursday.
Had IPP. We had to seal ourselves in, and then tear everything down after like minutes. Haha, then while being trapped inside the class, we talked about the chalet. Man, I can't wait for it, :D Its our last outing for the whole class ! :D Gotta make it a memorable oneeeee, :D Then it was free period for the rest of the days. Had no mood. Something happened, shan't say. Was alone during recess, and teared up at the back of the class for like the whole recess. Felt so pathetic. And then everyone started coming back from recess, and Mistika, Dexter and Marcus started comforting me. God, and that made me teared up furthur. But luckily, Justin from 2E2 came to tell jokes. Haha, its very hard to laugh at that. Then he played some horny tunes, that he knew I can't stop from laughing. So yeah. Then Mr Sim came in, and we watched The Journey to the Centre of the Earth. It was a nice show, :D Then I cheered up a little, but became sad again later on. Then during free period, I was sitting at the back of the class, just staring into the empty space. But luckily buddy came. Then he sorta comforted me and distracted me with his stuff, hah. Thanks buddy, :D Though that comfort didn't last long, caused I resumed my...depression soon after. After school, my heart was like, bleeding already. God, I didn't know what to do. Decided to put on a smile, and go on. So yeah, went for training. Walked to the MRT station with the whole group and Miss Lim. I led them, along with Bila. Then me and Bila talked alot, haha. She's so cute. Then reached Simei Court, Coach came and then trained. Was tired, man. Then was kinda depressed again, went home. Had like no life. Dad was asking and probing why. I just said I was tired, and he sort of wanted to cheer me up by teasing me. And for once, it didn't work. Went to bed at night, tearing up again for hours. Till I no longer had tears to shed, that I fell asleep. That was the most painful day of the year.

`301009, Friday.
Things got better. Had Mr Neo's farewell party. Haha, it was so cool when he arrived in the motorcycle. Kind of reminded me of the farewell party we had for Mr Goh in primary school, where he arrived standing in the car, and waving at us through the rooftop of the car. So cool. Then had speeches and stuff, kind of inpressing. Then had fire drill, was practically baking in the hot sun. Played with Hannah, cause I like to tease her, :D Haha. Then went back to class, free period and stuff. Then took back report book. I have 5 As ! God, its so unbelievable. Haha, but I'm not really happy, yet. But anyway, Dad's gonna give me my 500 bucks ! :D But maybe I'm not getting it from him, seeing that we're already going to Korea this holiday ! :D Haha, yeapppppp. And he's going to buy me lots of stuff, so yeah. Its already counted inside. The day didn't end off very badly, I guess. At night, I couldn't sleep, and the tears fell over again.

`311009, Saturday.
Its Halloween. But I didn't get to celebrate it. Met YuHeng and the rest of the people at E!Hub in the afternoon. They were playing arcade. Took neoprints and was debating if we should watch movie. I didn't want to, but in the end, I succumbed to them. Haha, 'sides, I got free movie and popcorn, :D Haha. Then bought a hotdog, cause was like super hungry. The popcorn was already half gone before the movie started. Haha, then ate the hotdog during the movie. It was hard larhs ! And like super long. And then Dexter was like thinking sick. Haha. Then he ate some too. Watched Sister's Keeper. We were like crazy, we were the only ones laughing, haha. Especially at the kissing and bed scenes and stuff. Haha. ShiLi, SiHui were like..haha. Yeap, then went home afterwards, cause it was already six. Was depressed again, cause things didn't get better. Dad was starting to suspect that something was up cause I look so...depressed, he claimed. And he thought that it had something to do with the outing. It was another night, the same night again, where I couldn't stop my tears.

`011109, Sunday.
Cheered up a little, cause dad was putting alot of effort in cheering me up. Didn't do much, but went to the travelling agency for the whole day. It was so long. Cheered up alot, 'cause things were back to normal. My heart was melting too, :D Then Kenny was telling lots of jokes, haha. And we two were in the car, like keep laughing as though there's no tomorrow. Haha. God, then we told each other secrets. But not so indepth ones, :D Haha, for me larhs. Then finally at 6 plus, we drove home. Reached at around going to 7 ? Or earlier. Ate dinner, and played online games, :D Haha, dad was amazed by my cool skills of getting high scores, :D Haha.

`021109, Monday.
I finally got to see Crystal ! Haha, they came over in the afternoon, haha. Omg, she looks like a...gurl now. Haha, okay, she wore stuff that made her look like..a gurl. Haha, but the rest didn't come. Only Crystal and her parents. Haha, then we talked about the trip and stuff, and then lent them DvDs, :D Then we played with Kenny's iTouch. Haha, so fun. We played Truth or Dare. Haha, then after that, they wanted to go. We did all this in aobut two hours or more. We did alot more stuff of course, but I'm lazy to list. So yeah. Then after they go, I continued watching DvD, :D Haha. So cool. Parents came back from massaging after that. And the day just continues as normal.


I have training later on ! :D Was supposed to meet L'ove, but now its cancelled. Its okay, anyway, we're meeting up tomorrow too, :D For the barberque stuff and stuff. So yeah. Alright, its been a long post. I shall end off here, :D
♥,xoxo.

P.S./ I'm sorry about before. Where we almost fell apart, and I was this close to losing you. That's a mistake I wouldn't make again. I'm sorry baby, iloveyou.


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I need to wake up from the state of mind,
this situation is a staying kind.

I know I haven't been updating much. I'm kinda lazy and busy to. So yeah, I shall update as soon as possible yeahs, but not nowwwwww. And thanks for all the tags, :D I shall try to reply any time I'mma free, :D

P.S. / We'll keep goinggggg on, ♥
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