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♥ Florence, over-hyperactive. I (L) eating chocolates, and I'm a klutz,as well as a trouble-maker :D I'm fourteen, and July the 15th would be awesome. I love being cheeky and childish. That's the part of me that'll never grow up. I have a mind of a five-year-old and I love putting a smile on people's faces. So if you're down, I'm always here. Netball's my passion, and I'm loving it. I'm hoping for fairytales and miracles to happen ^^. I may be naive at times, but you can't cheat me. Currently attached with baby♥, and still counting on. I'm tremendously spontaneous and hyperactive most of the times. I love sweet things, they simply melt my heart. Equal Equation, L'ove.

If anyone can make me fall in love ,
you can .

Oh, HELLO :D
I'm so so addicted David Archuleta's songs, hahs.
Listening to it over and over again .
Crush , You can & A little too not over you is lyk awesome !
Haha, if anyone's reading the post, I recommend these three .
Hahs, they're my favouriteeeeeeeeee ! <3

Alrights, back to school .
Had D&T test yesterday .
Hmms... forgot a few questions.
Tsktsk, nevermind , just wish hope that I'll pass .
Stayed back in school yesterday .
Watched Brian, TianJia and others play basketball .
Hmms, Brian's basketball is lyk cool .
Hahs, he beat some guy whose lyk some...
Anyways, Lesmin, YuHeng, Sihui, YaChun, ShiLi, Adrian, YiXian & me were together all along .
We were lyk slacking I think ?
Sitting at the round table, dunno doing what .
Wasting and crapping time .
Wanted to do Maths , but didn't really have the mood .
Den there was once when Paul came asking me to buy the things ,
to support their Vietnam trip .
Hahs, funnyyyyyyyyyyyy larhs .
Sorry though, didn't buy .
Don't have the money larhs .
Aft that YiXian went for NPCC ,
ShiLi went for counselling or something .
Left L , YH , SH , YC , A & me .
Den something sweet happened...
Hahas, not gonna elaborate .
Was quite touched larhs =X
Hahas...aft that den went home le .
Was having cramps all the way larhs.
Waited for YX until lyk 5 plus !
Hahs, he got rejected to go into the NPCC room lyk thrice .
HAHA , kay larhs, not only him , the whole group .

After that , we just seperated .
Arghs, my smses are going to exceed le...
Hahas... I've still got 16 more days... before I can use up the free 2000 msges...
Now I already use lyk 1050 liao ?
Dont think it can last till the 15 of the next month...
Stupid lorhs, Valentine's Day that day msg-ed 7 ppl at one go .
Thats why waste so much msges ...
Hahas, alrights .
Shall end off here .
Just edited a new picture :D
Heeeeeeees , alrights, byeeeeeeeee !





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Free from all those tears and lies ,
feel that I'm melting in your eyes .

HELLO ! :D
Heeeeeeees, changed my blogskin .
Think that its niceeeeeee !
Hahas, I'm bored bored bored larhs...
Went to KFC with Yuheng, Sihui, Lesmin, Adrian, YiXian & Brian just now.
Chor Beng was there too, but he went with his friends.
Brian sat with Lesmin, while the rest of us were together.
Hmms, felt quite fed up =X
But anyways, shall not interrupt anymore.
Hmms, can't help it.
Den my heart had that freaking feeling again, that tight tension.
Stupid, have been having that for days le.

D&T test tomoro , hahs, dunno if can pass not.
Tsktsk...
Arghs, feel so moody now larhs...
Hahas...
Trying to do the English NPPA, but can't seem to find any info .
Tomoro staying back, heeeeeees .
I'm so boredddddddddddd !
Msn's lyk dead man .
No one comes to talk to me.
And I lazy to talk go find people and talk .
Hahs, talked to PeiShi just now though.
Hmms... still got Maths haven do larhs...
Stupiddddd... and YiXian's not replying my msges !
Saddddddddddd , hahs.
Alrights, shall end here.
Byeeeeeeeee ! :D
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To make you mine ,
stay with me tonight .

I TAKE BACK MY WORDS !
You don't deserve my apology , my sympathy and furthurmore my friendship.
You are just such a jerk ,
thinking that you can toy with gurls just lyk that .
Thinking that gurls will look at you lyk you're some hot ass .
Face it , you're not .
I shouldn't have apologised when I rejected you !
Should have just kicked it in your face and said no !
But I actually considered your feelings ,
ass , what a dumb shit I was .
Shit you and your lies .
Your crap and all that .
Shit you , I seriously hate you alot right now .
Seeing your face , I feel lyk giving you one tight slap .
Forget it , you're such a jerk .
No wonder you don't get dates .
Hah , jackass .

Sorry for the rough and aggressive venting .
But I really can't stand it, and I'm really seriously angry .
What kind of guy is he ?
Jerk .
Okay , forget it .
Today school was awesomeeeeee !
Haha , I really think that I've overcomed my emo-ness .
Well , at least for now .
Hahs , hmms... feel quite irritated by the person mentioned above ^^ .
Tsktsk , kick his ass and give him one tight slap please .
Anyone.
Aiyah , feel so angry now .
Lyk boiling.
Need to go talk to "stead" already .
Hahs , hmms... I feel so unlucky man .
Really really unlucky .
Firstly , because of my knee , have to temporarily stop netball .
Secondly , because I saw ' someone with another person ' today ,
making my heart beat lyk it was gonna jump out .
But I was with anonymous too .
Heeeeeeeeeeeees :D
Thirdly , I'm feeling cold lyk hell , and think I'm gonna get sick .
Gosh , and I think I have difficulty breathing .
Ass , hope my asthma won't come back larhs...
Its been lyk I dunno , 7 or 8 years since I had it ?
Just beg it won't come back .
Hahs , alrights.
Shall end here .
Decided to revise Geography and History todayyyyyy .
Favourite subjects of all times .
Oh , and I just found out that I'm so addicted to David Archuleta's songs ! ♥
Hahs, they're lyk awesome !
Haha , alrights .
Byeeeeeeeeeeee ! :D

Am I the one walking out , or is it you ?
Or is it both of us ?
Hahs, I'm so confused...
But i love the way I feel now...
Carefree... of everything.

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Oh, can i hold on to you the rest of my life .

Oh man, i feel so...
I dunno how to express that kind of feeling .
Its those kind of regretful+heartbroken+confused+stupid+screwed kind of feeling .
I think I'll go mad if i can feel so many feelings at one time.
Short post .
Oh yeah , yesterday at the stadium,
ran 7 rounds in 15 mins .
Heeeeeeeeees , so proud of myself :D
Hahas, alrights.
Today going out !
Dunno where should i go .
Hmms, he's going to Malaysia .
Hope that he'll enjoy his trip :D
Alrights, byeeeeeeeeeeeee !



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There's one last thing left to say ,
iloveyou .

HELLO ! :D
Hahs , I know its abit late for posting .
Oh well, but I'm bored.
Trying to process the "Hazard" homework thing .
Ben's racking his brains too .
Heeeees, sad though , he haven even started .
Hmms...who the hell killed her...
I somehow think its the sheriff ,
but later will have evidence thats not really him , its that Marx .
Aiyah , dunno larhs .
Confused , confused & confused .
I'm so random now , & I dunno why .
Chatted with Rasyid, Sham & Yani just now .
Hahs, Sham was talking logical .
Yani was temperamental .
Rasyid was basically ,well , lovesick .
Hahs, what's wrong with people .
Haha , ooooooooooooh , I got praised today too !
Heeeeeees, great .
Plus plus plus the people mentioned above , hahas .

Okay , I'm getting wayyyyy off the topic .
Ouch , and my eyes hurts now...
Tsktsk, no mood to post liao .
Hahas, shall end off here .
Byeeeeeeeeeeee .

Sorry, but i don't think i can/ and should accept you.
Couldn't have told you the answer today, was finding excuses .
That's simply all i have to say.
I'm sorry .

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Whose supposed to leave ,
Whose supposed to stay ,
or am I supposed to walk away ?

YO ! :D
Heeeeeees , decided to post .
Yesterday night was so tiring .
& Jia En's lyk making a point to call me almost every night .
Hahs , we chatted lyk for awhile .
And I know something liao =X
Haha , cannot cannot say , later he kill me .
Sad , I owe him something for not calling him back .
Dumb dumb .
Okay , enough about that .
I'm addicted to the song YaChun introduced to me !
Tsktsk, haha .
Hmms, the song's lyrics is really meaningful .

Ouch , its only 8.47am !
Haha , I'm going jogging liao...
At around 9 lyk that at the stadium alone .
Hahas...
Hmms, I'm hardworking ehs ?
I'm trying to make it a point for me to go every weekend morning .
Oh , and I wanna go shopping larhs !
Wanna buy buy things :D
Haha , longgggggg time never buy things for me liao lehs !
Dad still owe me man !
Haha, he say he going to buy for me 10 FBTs at the warehouse ,
which cost about 70 bucks ?
Haha , I thought he was joking, but he was serious .
Hahas, he say he bringing me there to choose when he's free .
Love love love him loads man ! ♥
Hahas , hmms...I'm trying to catch up on the episodes of Gossip Girl .
Heroes I already watch till lyk season 3 Episode 16 already ?
Kenny too .
Hahas, he's so good larhs , know how to help me find my favourite movies :D
Heeeeeeees , he's so sweeeeeeet can ! xD
Cannot let him read this post , later he come in front of me and boast again .
Hahas ,no larhs , he won't .
How how how , nothing to post liao .
Oh , & I'm lyk so emo ...
Please don't ask me why ...
Hahas...I'll be speechless when you ask me this question ...

YiXian played a prank on me yesterday !
To be frank , I was surprised & a little little happy though .
Haha =X
I can't believe I just said that...
I'm not happy becos he played a prank on me kay !
I'm happy about the prank .
Heeeeeees xD
Don't get my point wrong though .
Haha , I feel lyk I'm boasting boasting !
Okay larhs...
End off here liao .
In five minutes , its going to be 9am .
So I have to go prepare for my jog le .
Byeeeeeeeeee people ! xD

Do I really seem to be so emo ?
I know that I've only turned quieter and all...
But didn't realised that...
Hmms...I've been putting a smile on the outside...
Is it so obvious to see my sadness ?...
I'm trying not to show my vulnerable side ...
But you guys saw through the smile I was faking...
Probably its faltering...probably i'm breaking down ...
I don't know which side to buy anymore...

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Such a long game to play ,
such a long road to run .

HELLO PEEPS ! :D
Ohmyyyyy , today came home super super super early can !
Not used to it...
Tsk , and furthurmore , there's nothing to do !
Reached home at lyk 1.50pm !
Zzz, the cliques still in school nehhs...
Stupidddddd ,
dad lied to me larhs...
Say wanna bring me go Aljunied , end out go home .
Feel so angry now...
Ignoring him lorhs...sort of =X
Hahs...

Today was a farce .
Could be a happy day de , end out sad sad .
Why why why .
Cried today =X
Hahs...& I don't know why .
Not gonna go into details , so move on people .
Hmms, got homework again...
I'm so lazyyyy now .
Having science test on next Wednesday .
I seriously have no mood to post now...
Got no mood to do anything .
Just feel lyk lying on the bed and simply think about him =X
Haha , can't believe I just said that though .
Hmms... skipped lunch .
No appetite to eat whatsoever ...
Haha...
Okay , I shall end off here .
Want to watch movie .
Heeeeees , byeeeeeeee .



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At the end of the day ,
there's only one thing left to say...
iloveyou .

HELLO ! :D
Heeees, sorry for the lack of updates .
Have been busy .
This period of time has been so hard ,
and it has not been a great start for a new year...
Anyways , had two tests today .
Maths & Geography...
Tsk , the Maths is so hard !
Or at least for me larhs...
Hahas... I've always failed in factorisation ...
So I'm not so sure if I can really pass this test .
Geography's okay , I'm quite confident in it .
Haha, I think .
Shit shit shit .
I wanted to post something really important & that motivated me to post ,
but now my mind's blank and I can't think of anything !
Oh yeah , Miss Tan's not in school these days ,
kinda miss her , to be frank =X
Haha, cos I'm already used to seeing her every morning ,
so I guess its kind of weird suddenly not seeing her come for these few days ?
Yeapppppp , should be it...
Dunno what the hell's wrong with me !
Oh , and I dreamt that I got a new phone yesterday .
Haha , such a pathetic dream man .
Must have been so desperate for a new phone .
But my phone's really starting to freak me out and spoil ,
seriously .

Have been feeling quite complicated these days...
And I dunno why .
Have been asking myself why...
Have been reflecting on alot of things...
Have been thinking about what Crystal said ...
Have been thinking about what everyone said...
Have been thinking if its worth it all ...
I've been fighting for a year, thats all ...
Have been thinking if I should heed their advice ,
have been thinking if what I'm doing is worth it all...
This thing has affected people around me...
They're sharing the same pain I'm feeling...
So am I supposed to make a choice ?
Have been waiting for your answer ,
the one you can't seem to make .
The decision I'd love to hear ,
though it doesn't seem to be here .
Hoping that all this would go away ,
but it looks lyk they're here to stay .
Sometimes i feel that these things are just a nuisance ,
they're idiotic and dumb , why am i caring ,
but in the end, I'm still doing all this .
I really don't know what to do...
Really wish I know where my heart lies in ...
Where yours lies in...
Where everyone's lies in...

I hate the wind from winter ,
so cold that it pricks .
Only you can ease all the loneliness ,
and make me feel where it all fits .

Yesterday the kite was left at a corner ,
someone threw it down that road .
I seriously don't want you to find a reason to leave .

Every night when I close my eyes ,
nightmares fill my dreams .
You smile , but the person beside you ain't me .

The sky opens a scar,
it cuts directly in my heart .
I don't want to pretend to be weak ,
but I also don't want to love so cowardly .

Actually i love you very much ,
and I don't wanna lose you .
But don't tell me I don't have the right,
to say I don't agree .

You gave her the kiss , even though its only " leftover warmth " ,
do you know how much I want to hold on to your heart ...
I know she loves you too ,
you're afraid to see her hurt .

Everyday , i pretend to be happy , afraid that you'll leave .
Can i be stubborn , begging you not to go .
The hidden sentence in my heart ,
actually I still love you ...

Can I be stubborn , begging you not to go .
The hidden sentence in my heart ,
actually i still love you ...

Heeeeeeees, I'm addicted to this songgggg !
Its in chinese , but translated it into English lyrics.
So it might look abit weird ,but the words are meaningful .
Hahs , and probably fits ...
Anyways , this week till today has been suckish...
Quite suckish...
With all the things and all making me feel so screwed up =X
Hahs , there , I said it ...
Alrights, I shall end off here...
I've vented enough...
Byeeeeeeeee !




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HOOOOOOOOS ,

I'm going crazyyyyyyyyyyy ...
Just ate lyk two bars of chocolate larhs .
Tskkkkkkkk, & I dunno why...
Hahas...trying to cheer up , but I can't seem to .
I can't feel my heart anymore...
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I'm falling apart ,
lyk I used to .
Keep falling , keep hurting .
This feeling's taking control of me ,
& I can't help it .
Can't seem to distract myself from anything at all .
Hooooooooooos .
Everything I do, seems to remind me of you .
Can't I have you back , can't seem to face the fact .

ILY ,
all I'm left with is used-to-be's .

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Can't I have you back ,
Can't seem to face the fact ,

HELLO ! :D
Decided to post .
Hahs , ouch , my right eye is kind of swollen .
Tsktsk , hahs...
Not gonna say what happened =X
Anyways, yesterday was fun .
I was crazy sms-ing .
Hahs , one shot got lyk 15 messages back ?
Den aft I reply , den keep coming in .
Mum was lyk , wah , your frenns all crazy arhs ?
Hahas...den I continue replying, hahs .
Lyk some crazy ass .

Today's a SUNDAY !
OH , BTW , HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHI HAU !
Haha , msn-ed him never reply .
Guess he sleeping .
Yay ! Today probably going out .
Hmms...I need air too...
Hahs , alrights .
End off here le .
Byeeeeeeeeee !

Ireallycan'tforget,
stupidstupidtomakeadecisionlykthat!
imissyou...


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Now that I know ,
sweetness doesn't last forever .

Hoooooo , this might be the suckiest Valentine's Day ever .
Hahas... or probably not , seeing that I received roses yesterday .
So its not that bad...
Sorry for the lack of updates people .
Haven been actually in the mood to post .
I don't know what I've been thinking .
Hahas...there's so many people giving me support ,
but I seem to be falling in my own space .
I can't seem to understand...
Hahas...

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else

Its for the best I know it is but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around , you're with her now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why , you're so hard to forget
Don remind me , I'm not over it
Tell me why , I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Aren't memories supposed to fade
what's wrong with my heart
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard

Should be strong, moving on , but when I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around , you're with her now ,
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why , you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me , I'm not over it
Tell me why , I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret , everything I said ,
no way to take it all back , yeah
Now I'm on my own , I can't let you go
I'll never understand, I'll never understand

Tell me why , you're so hard to forget
Don remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why , I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why , you're so hard to forget
Don remind me , I'm not over it
Tell me why , I can't seem to face the truth
And I really dunno what to do
I'm just a little too not over you , not over you .

Hooos, I really think this song suits .
Hahas...today mass run , got fifth in position .
Miracle ehs ?
Glad that my stamina had improved, and I didn't stop at all .
Oh , bytheway , thanks to all who gave me roses <3
Hahs, really appreciated it .
Though I don really understand what your roses meant .
I'm just waiting for an answer .
So what am I supposed to do now ?
Oh yeah , and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THESE PEOPLE ! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FION & SHAUNA !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGELINE !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN !
HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY SHI HAU !
HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY SHAMSUL !
Yeap , that's about it right ?
Sorry if I missed anyone out .
Alrights , I shall end here .
Byeeeeeeeee .

I'm really confused now...
So what is it ...

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The hidden sentence in my heart ,
actually I still love you .

Hello peopleeeeee =)
Decided to post ,
though there's no mood .
Just came back from Hougang Green,
parents went to buy things.
Mum went out first,
Fiona was chasing after her ,
so left me & Dad .
Den we were lyk bonding plus chatting.
I was asking and flying random questions at him .
& also asking him what he's giving mum on Valentine's Day .
Hahs...speaking of which...V Day's coming nearer...
So is the mass run...
Haha...
There's really nothing I can say...
Hmms...this morning woke up at lyk 6.45 to 7am .
Just to go collect Grandma's remains .
She was cremated...
Yeah...hahs...& I've got a new dad !
Chang Hao, hahs. He's funny & sweet larhs...
He officially became my dad on lyk 060209 !
Hohos...& I've became Arus's Elmo & Chang Rong's niece .
Yupppppp, great .
All teenage .
Haha... Arus called me Elmo cos he said I looked lyk one.
And he was "criticising" how I looked as a gurl indirectly,
hahs, though he was praising me larhs .
He's seriously funnyyyyy .
Hoooooos , and I now know that he's a playboyyyyyyyyyy .
No larh =X , cannot say , later his girlfriend kill him ...
Heeeees...
From this funeral...I've learnt alot of things...
Whether from it or not...I'm gonna remember it...
Remember how it feels to be another party...
Remember how hurt it feels to lose someone you really cherish...
Remember how it feels not to cherish someone till you realise they're gone...
Remember no matter how much hatred there is between kins...will always be solved...
Remember how deep you can fall at a time like this...
Remember how much guilt a person can feel when they finally realise it...
Remember every single memory that flashes through your mind in the process...

Things that are long gone from this world...cannot be retrieved...
But things that are lost, can be retrieved...
What I'm trying to say is... everything that's done...
there's always a way...perhaps...
Hahas...why am I talking lyk I'm going to die ...
Crazy... but I feel tortured...
Dad asked me just now...
when we were walking back from Hougang Green...
why do I look so tortured, screwed, scared & sad...
Did something happen to me...
or was it becos I had something going on in me...
I didn't reply...
Cos everything's hard to say...
& besides, I can't bring myself to say anything...
Haha...all I said was my knee hurt...
Which was partly the reason too...
I guess I've kneeled too hard and long during the prayings...
Hmms...hope I can make it well enough for the next tournament...

Oh , and I'm going to receive 100 roses from my daddy on Valentine's Day !
Good ehs, shit...
Haha, its going to be only a email...
And fake chocolates from Arus .
Stupiddddddd ,all of them cheated my feelings...
Say say only...when I going home that time, say kidding...
Tskkkkkkkkkk .
Hahs...wonder what I'm going to receive on V's Day though...
Haha...Dickson !!
I really wanted that rose...
But just forget it...
Haha , pity him .
He's already buying for lyk 5 gurls ?
I dunno larhs...
Haha, let's not talk about it...

Somehow I feel that this year ain't such a great year,
or should I say , it started off badly...
I can't think now, brain can't process.
Oh , and Sham & the takraw guys,
CHEER UP :D
You can trash the other schools !
Take it just as an experience .
Haha .
Chatted with Sham just now larh ,
he's hilarious as usual .
Though there's nothing I can say..........................

Ouch Ouch Ouch,
why am I feeling this way now.
Lyk I've just fallen down from the highest building of all times,
and being crushed by dozens of cars...
Haha..................................
Life practically sucks sometimes .
Zzz...
Tracks & Fields Meet , Next Thursday .
Tournament , Next week .
Mass Run , Next week .
What more can happen next week .
Hahs, great...
Alrights, I shall end here...
Byeeeeeeeeeeeee .

Retrieve what I said...
is it possible..
I can't think !

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I just can't figure it out ,

Gosh , shit life .
Didn't go school today .
Had to attend grandma's funeral...
& I can't express how tiring it was,
and also how I felt ...
MY LIFE JUST SUCKS SOMETIMES.............
& I dunno why .
Tskkkkkkkkkk , the pain's killing me...
& it will... soon enough...
Hahs...

Perhaps it wasn't meant to be,
cos nothing seems to turn out right .
I just feel that everyone & everything is leaving me one by one...
Now I know that things won't last forever,
no matter how many promises and words were said...


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I don think that I can get through ,
everything's happening too fast .

Feel so empty now , that you're gone too,
another empty space , empty song .
Reflections of those dinners we had together ,
your laughter and smile flashing across my mind .
I don't think I can get through , all thats happening around me .
Though we're not those very very close types ,
I still feel somehow sad...
Just...wish I could express how I feel...
But I really dunno what to say anymore...
I need support now...
Cos the tears are jus falling...
I can't say how I feel anymore...
But you'll always , be remembered by us .
I...
iloveyou , and will always do .



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Take one big step forward ,
putting my heart together .

Hey all .
Sorry , for not posting .
Have been busy .
Anyways, lets start .
CNY was fun .
Went for reunion dinner with grandparents they all at Chinatown .
Den aft that we shop shop shop till the countdown , hahs .
Dad was gonna fall liao , cos he tired of standing , i think .
Fiona cried the moment the countdown ended ,
cos she got scolded .
Heeees , den mum said she was gonna cry the whole year again !

The next day , went to Malaysia to visit Grandparents , mum's side de .
The whole house was loud loud loud !
Cos the adults were gambling .
And basically for the two days , we played , eat , played and eat again .
Haha , fat fat fat lorhs !
When it was time to go back , the customs jammed lyk , i dunno what !
It jammed up to four hours can !
We left at 4 , jammed to 8 plus .
Tsk , nevermind .
Reached SIngapore, went to eat KFC .
Aft that went home cos the next day got school .
Hahs .

Sorry for such a lousy update .
Lazy to post the so long details .
January has ended , a new month has come .
What will things be like ?
Hmms... plus the mass run falls on Valentine's Day ,
Hahs , doesn't link at all .
Alrights , I shall end here .
Wanna go do work liao .
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !




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