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♥ Florence, over-hyperactive. I (L) eating chocolates, and I'm a klutz,as well as a trouble-maker :D I'm fourteen, and July the 15th would be awesome. I love being cheeky and childish. That's the part of me that'll never grow up. I have a mind of a five-year-old and I love putting a smile on people's faces. So if you're down, I'm always here. Netball's my passion, and I'm loving it. I'm hoping for fairytales and miracles to happen ^^. I may be naive at times, but you can't cheat me. Currently attached with baby♥, and still counting on. I'm tremendously spontaneous and hyperactive most of the times. I love sweet things, they simply melt my heart. Equal Equation, L'ove.

Too many locks, too many crimes.
Too many tears, too many lies.


2108 hours, Friday.

I want to cry.
I want comfort, I've sighed.
Tears dropping like rain, my pretense fell through at last.
How long will this serrated pain in my heart last ?
I need help, I need you.
But apparently, you aren't here anymore.
I thought that everything would be well, after so long.
After resolving every barrier that was in our way.
We've braved through every storm, climbed every high mountain.
But baby, don't you see ?
We're fading now, going apart, going furthur.
We're pretending we're alright, when we're actually not.
What's gotten into you, I can't recognise you or your attitude.
Why is it that you're so sensitive, about me and you.
Can't you see I'm trying my best, but I know that you are too.

Now, you're hiding behind some pretense, as if I don't know.
I know you're hurting inside too, and you're putting on this mask.
I've done what I could do. back to top?

Wake up & smell the break-up,
Fix my heart, put on my make-up.


1938 hours, Monday.
Its somehow ironic, that I'm posting at this point of time.
But I suddenly have the urge to post, and I don't know why.

School was okay today, time sort of passed quickly.
Was looking forward to the swimming lessons, and finally it came.
Got scolded again for smiling too much, but I can't seem to control myself.
Its usually when something happens that I go unusually high, as always.
And yes, something did happen, hence my hyperness.
My pretense fell through though, and somehow I teared.
Right there and then in front of everyone.
Thanks to all the people who asked me, thanks so much for all your concern.

I feel down now. Useless. Feel like dying to kill this pain.
I'm disappointed. I'm useless. I can't get anything right.
I'm sorry, for everything if possible.
♥,xoxo. back to top?

This is the last straw,
don't wanna hurt anymore.

1631 hours, Sunday , 260709.
Two more days to Atikah's birthday.
Four more days to Alvin Or's birthday.
Five more days to Martin's birthday.
And of course, I haven't bought any presents, yet again.
I doubt I'll be able to find time to buy them.

School's tomorrow, and I'm not yet done with my Flour Baby.
Its still lying on the kitchen table, untouched.
I'm somehow having a splitting headache, and feel so restless to do anything else.
No one can even help me now, not even you.

Oh yes,I said in yesterday's post that I had loads of things to post.
But I somehow can't seem to recall what I want to post anymore.
I wanted to wish, MISTIKA & ZUHREE a HAPPY 2nd MONTH ANNIVERSARY ! Last long :D
And secondly, I wanted to dedicate this to Miss Ong, who has left our school to go to NIE ;
I know you wouldn't be reading this, but somehow I feel that this is appropriate.
Thank you for everything, you're the best teacher I've ever had.
I'll miss you :D Thanks for the support during the Netball tournament and the chocolates.
You gave me alot of support, and also during PE lessons.
At trainings, you would jog with us too, to encourage us and give us support.
When we fall, you would lend us a helping hand.
You're a kind and sweet teacher who we all adore.
Thank you for everything, and wish you all the best in NIE & also with your xoxo ! :D

Yes,I'm done with my 'speech', chey.
Okays, I shall start trying to post about this week at school, which is rather lethargic.

200709`Monday ;

Lessons were okay, I guess.
Was looking forward to swimming lessons at the end, rather.
L'ove didn't go for swimming then, had to part in school.
Walked with Mistika and Bila then, and played along the way.
Swam, finally succeeded in achieving the goal of swimming the way the teacher wanted.
Didn't get scolded much.
After swimming, went to Pizza Hut to eat with the clique.
Ate spaghetti, and after that headed to Macdonalds to meet Atikah, Hannah & Ali to wait for L'ove.
He came afterwards, all sweaty and stuff.
Hahs, after slacking awhile, ( when we were supposed to wait for Rasyid, but he bailed.),
we left to for the interchange.
Haziq came afterwards, with Afiq & the other guys from 2n2.
Waited for the bus, went home with Rasyid.
Gossiped, and he told me some stuff about Alyssa.
Hahs, and then I lent him my phone to call her.
And he was stinking like hell I tell you !
Gosh, sprayed my deodhorant on him all over.
We played and teased each other, and was like laughing like hell lar ! :D
Anyhoo, he alighted afterwards, and then I was alone again.

210709`Tuesday ;

Had training till quite late, reached home at 8 plus going to 9.
L'ove waited for me till my training ended today, hahs,so good <3
Anyhoo, after that waited for Justin to be done with his D&T, and so we slacked in the canteen.
It was so dark larhs, kind of scary.
Fiddled with his MP3, and then played and all.
His bro came after that, and then kept teasing me.
Bus-ed home after that, got scolded for ending training so late.
But Dad didn't seem to mind much, except for me eating dinner late, so yeah.
Hahs, he played with me again, love him loads ! :D

220709`Wednesday ;

Was super tired, had Math test too.
Forgot clean about how to do the most important question.
Hence, losing 6 marks at one go.
Sigh...Had F&N then.
Cooked fried mifen, super yummy :D
We were supposed to take only 2 mushrooms.
But Amelia and me were mushroom lovers and so, we took like ten.
Then the teacher came over and took half away, cause she said if there was too much,
it won't be nice, hahs.
L'ove didn't go for F&N as he had the SMRT training thingy.
Messaged afterwards, as he claimed it was boring.
After school, went to the canteen to finish up the mifen with Amelia.
And then headed to change in the toilet and walked with Lesmin, Amelia and Amanda to the MRT station.
Lesmin and Amelia went to the interchange while me and Amanda took the MRT.
I was headed to Somerset to meet Kenny to have a haircut.
His personal hairdresser is there ehs.
Reached there, his friend, Kelvin, was there too.
Then went to cut.
I was the first one to cut. The washing hair part was super shiok :D
Hahas, then after that, went to Marks & Spencers alone to buy chocolate cookies.
Done already, followed Kenny's other friend to fix his violin.
But it was getting late, so we train-ed and bus-ed back home first.
Reached home, was nagged at by mum, but otherwise never mind.
She said my hair was nice but it was too expensive.
Anyhoo, I think I looked kind of retarded and so clipped up my fringe for the rest of the week.
Sigh, I miss it =(

230709`Thursday ;

Had training again, L'ove waited for me once again.
He had CCA phototaking at around 5 plus.
Oh yes, speaking of CCA phototaking, mine was at 3.30pm.
Waited for quite a long time lars.
Sigh,sigh.
Was looking so much forward to training that day.
Physical training was on Tuesday, which I forgot to mention was torture.
Was having muscle aches consecutively for the next few days.
Training was awesome, but L'ove had to rush to meet his parents afterwards, so yeah.
Something happened, hahs.
Only Bila and the others knows <3
Anyhoo, bus-ed with Bila.
Was "angry" with her for not telling me some stuff.
But I surrendered and gave up and talked to her in the end.
Something disgusting and shocking happened.
Bila and I boarded the bus, and there was this Indian guy, who stared at us.
After that he gave me this pervertic smile and stared at my legs.
Okay, not really stare, but you know.
He had this sick pervertic look on his face that I feel like slapping so much.
When we walked past him, or rather, I was hopping and running to get to the behind seats.
My heart was accelerating.
And it was night already, around 7 plus again.
After Bila alighted, I was more afraid larhs.
Then my stop came, and night had fall.
I walked past the guy again, as he haven't alighted.
And he was staring at me again.
I quickly rushed down when the bus stopped and almost hit the door,
cause it wasn't fully opened yet.
And I was cursing afterwards, why it opened so slowly.
Sigh, reached home, told parents.
Dad was scolding every single vulgarity he could find, but otherwise said nothing else.
He just told me to be careful.
Something happened in the morning too, shall not elaborate.
L'ove knows, and he was like panicking larhs.
Hahs <3

240709`Friday ;
Went out with L'ove, cabbed back to school in the end.
As he was late for his CCA.
Hahs, stayed back afterwards.
Played netball, and stuff.
Seri was injured and so slacked in the sickbay afterwards.
Went to play ball again, and saw L'ove had already came back to school.
Played and chatted awhile, then he had to go march alr.
Was sort of reluctant =X
Anyhow, something happened in the PE room, between Mist & Zuhree...
Oh well, you can guess and imagine what happened xD
Haha, I shan't elaborate.

Went home afterwards, reached home late.
Got scolded by mum.
Had tuition afterwards, was super tired.
But was glad that the teacher gave me something more easing to do.
Dad fetched me afterwards as it was late.
And then went home.

250709`Saturday ;
Mundane. Boring. Stupid.
Was practically bored and alone for the whole day.
L'ove had NDP, so I had no one to accompany me.
Anyways, went swimming in the evening with Fiona and dad.
Swam awhile and went home for dinner, and luckily that killed time.
Because L'ove was done with NDP by then :D

260709`Sunday ( Today ) ;
Benny ( the tution teacher ) didn't come today.
Another teacher took us.
Gave us worksheets and stuff.
Was super bored and tired.
Doodled and all, sigh.
Was super super looking forward to going home.
Was having a splitting headache too.

Ate spaghetti for lunch, watch DvD, all the way till 1500 hours plus.
Slacked the whole day, and then decided to blog :D
Probably going out later, and I'm still not done with my flour baby.
I shall try and see if I can make any progress now.
Till here then.
♥,xoxo. back to top?

Tears dropping like rain,
feeling so much pain.

Blogger's screwed, and I can't post properly !
Sigh, so much for it, when I've got so much things to post for one day !
Gosh! Hope it returns to normal by tomorrow.
I'm begging please, I've really got loads of stuff to post.
Sigh. I'm gonna grow old of sighing.
I seriously want to post, so let me !
Okay, I sound kind of retarded already.

Its 2146 hours. And i shall go off.
Want to watch the show I've been trying to find for the past consecutive weeks.
And now that its on television, I shall watch it.
The first half of the show's gone, I've meant not to watch it.
But now I'm getting emotionally tired, and I need distractions, alot of distractions.

Went swimming just now, distracted myself for at least that few hours.
But I felt the pain again, after resurfacing.
Never mind, its not like no one hates me.
After all, all I ever do is to irritate people.
Like some retarded, pathetic, asshole.
Like as if you knew, how I'm feeling. back to top?

If I could only say,
I'm holding every breath for you.

1505 hours, Sunday ! <3
Had tuition this morning from 0900-1200 hours.
It was supposed to end at 1100 hours, but the teacher "begged" me to stay.
Hahs, was super high for today. I think its the longest time I laughed.
The last time I laugh for the longest was half-an hour.
Today I laughed continuously for about 20 minutes.
Like some super crazy ass, sitting there and laughing alone.
Haha, but the whole class was staring at me and laughing along too.
Ah, happy times.
Sunday's tuition is the best :D

Its the 19th of July today.
9 more days to Atikah's birthday.
11 more days to Alvin Or's birthday.
12 more days to Martin's birthday.
Oh yes, I forgot to change my profile to 14 years old officially alr.
Haha, reluctant to turn old.

Anyhoooooo, probably going out later.
Up to parents, they're a little indecisive yeahs.
Haaaaaaaaaahs.
L'ove's studying now, so hardworking.
I think I should stop slacking too, but I feel tired.
Sigh, I don't think next week's gonna be anymore better then last week.
Seeing that CCA's will probably resume already.
Which will drain me of all my energy.
Without CCAs, I'm already half-dead.
Imagine with them... Oh well, inevitable.

I want to watch Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince.
But nobody wants to go watch it with me.
Dad says he's willing to go at first, but when he heard it was two and a half hours long,
he said that he would probably fall asleep.
Crystal's watching with her sister already, so I probably can't tag along.
And the rest... I don't think they'll have time to specially watch it with me.
Oh, whatever. I'll get a chance at it.
I should probably go off right now.
Settle some stuff, and log off to study.
I still have unfinished art and Math to do.
I'm such a procrastinator.
♥,xoxo.
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Your beautiful eyes,
staring right into mine.

2047 hours, Saturday night.
I'm slacking, as usual on a Saturday.
I'm supposingly supposed to be studying, but I'm not, so yeah.

Went out with Mistika and the group today.
They're awesome people :D
There was cake & birthday songs for me, Atikah & Haziq, haha.
They're simply sweet people <3
Anyhooooo, met Rasyid & Mistika at Tampines MRT station at 1230 hours.
They were late, or rather I was early.
Mistika arrived first. I got so pissed at Rasyid.
Not that he was late of course, but because of his stupid replies to my messages.
I asked him where he was, he said reaching Tampines.
i said where, he said reaching Tampines again.
And I said WHERE?! and he said Tampines again.
Made me so pissed off larh !
Anyway, met him and his friend.
Haha, something happened, cheyyyyyyy :D
Mistika's...oh well, got her eyes set on him, somehow.
Oh well, it happens all the time, accustomed to it already, hahs.
After that, Sham arrived and then we all went to Pasir Ris.
Rasyid's friend had to leave.
We were practically gossiping about him in the train, mostly for Mist.
Sigh, don't know why. Felt kinda bad though.
Hahs... anyway, reached Pasir Ris.
Went to the interchange to get Mist's Ez-link changed as it was spoilt.
Saw Zuhree on the way going into White Sands.
Went to Billabong, to see what Rasyid can get for Alyssa.
Walked around after that, and then went out to get Haziq.
Slacked and ate at Macs then.
In the process, waiting for Atikah to arrive.
She arrived at around 1345 hours or so.
Along with Bila, Ali and Rizan.
Bila scared me there, as she said she wasn't going last night.
Hahs, anyway, at 1400 hours, we left Macs and walked to Pasir Ris.
Sham & Rasyid started skateboarding, leaving us walking.
Reached Pasir Ris Park, sat down at one of the empty barberque pits.
Cut the cake, sang birthday songs, took pictures.
The same procedures.

Then went by the seaside to play then, and to take pictures too.
Climbed on Rasyid's back on one of the pictures.
Looked kind of aggressive.
Mistika was trying to climb on Ali's back then.
Haha, oh yeah.
FOR PICTURES, GO TO MISTIKA'S BLOG !
I'm lazy to save them and upload.
Haaaaaaaaaaahs.

Went back to where the others were then.
And then, kept playing with Mist's camera.
Kept taking photos with it, its so cool.
Haha, then I learned how to skate.
Rasyid was guiding me then, Mistika and him holding one side of my hands,
and pulling me along.
I felt like a kid, and they were my parents, hah. No offence though.
Then the second try, Sham and Rasyid supported me.
Still couldn't get the hang of it, but it was very fun.
Now I know why people like skateboarding so much.
Hahs, it is seriously fun ! You people should try it someday !

Slacked a little while more after that, and went off.
All of us wanted to got to Marina Barrage, to meet L'ove, as he was having NDP.
But in the end, we didn't, as his breaktime was gonna be over soon, and yeah.
Walked all the way back out of Downtown East.
Mistika left for her nephew's chalet, while we decided to go bowling at Tampines.
Had fun jumping on people's backs :D
Haha, was super high larhs.
I left for home after that, as I had to reach home by 1800 hours.
But the rest left for Tampines Safra for bowling ;D

Reached home, had dinner, was super super full.
Showered and then currently slacking as we speak :D

I shall end off here.
Tuition tomorrow at 0800 hours.
Sigh, early in the morning.
And I wouldn't have L'ove to accompany me through messaging as its early.
Another boring day I guess.
And I shall get high again, or not.
Its 2107 hours, imissyou.
♥,xoxo. back to top?

Wish I had concentrated,
they say love was complicated.

Okay, first off, Many thanks to these people :
Thanks to ;

L'ove, for the super package present ! :D Hahs.
Thanks for the cute card, handmade wrapper, and the presents inside !
And of course, for the special and lovely day you made it <3

Sihui, for the cute present, I don't know what its called :D
Thanks for the super hilarious card too !

Yuheng, for the cute photo frame & your birthday wishes !

Lesmin, for the super super huge card !

Amelia, for the two great big chocolate bars & a hidden card inside ! :D

Bila, for the cute " F " keychain ! :D Haha.

Adrian & Arabel, for the cute soft toy dog and pencil !

Godparents/ Cherise, for the cute outfits you bought for me !
I really really like them ! :D

Parents, for the cake and the wonderful dinner !
And of course, the upcoming presents you're gonna buy for me <3

Kenny, for the super expensive perfume ! :D Haha, thanks <3

Fiona, for the markers that I love, haha :D

Mistika, for the fourteen times birthday wishing. Nabila too ! :D

&& thanks to all those who wished me a Happy Birthday ! :D

I guess that's all. I'm really really sorry if I left any of you out !
I can't think properly right now.
I should go off now, as I gotta prepare for my outing out with Mistika & the others,
to celebrate my birthday, Haziq's & Atikah's :D
Till then <3
♥,xoxo.


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I came out alive, but now I'm black and blue.

I'm lagging behind on stuff.
Haven't used the computer for ages, it feels.
And my blog's four days behind time.
Let's update then ;

130709`Monday

School was normal, I guess.
Haaaaaaahs, I think I was kinda down or high.
Ups and downs.
Swimming lesson, the coach didn't come.
Another lady teacher replaced her, she's funny and nice ;D
Haaaaahs, I think that she's nicer than our original coach.
Anyway, had fun at swimming.
Went to the deep pool, kind of tired then.
After that, went to KFC to eat with the clique.
Amelia & L went to LJS.
Went home after that, super super tired.
But was still counting down to my birthday ! :D

140709` Tuesday

Tuesday, another day at school.
People were like messaging me to ask me what I want for my birthday the next day.
Hyped up at school, I think.
Hahs, love kept bugging me to say what I want.
After school, slacked and went home immediately, as Dad said Fiona had H1N1.
Sigh, reached home, he lied.
He just wanted us to come home, but Fiona was sick alr.
She was already sick in the morning and that's why Kenny & I fell for the trick.
He really knows how to act, saying that he's at the hospital and stuff.
And that we were quarantined.
What a joke to play huh.

Went swimming near the stadium with Dad and Kenny as there was nothing to do.
Tried to improve on the skills that were taught.
I think I'm getting the hang of it, just that I'm not used to it.
Sigh, still afraid that the coach will scold.
Haaaaaaaaaaaahs, she say I ain't serious.
Anyway, swam at the deep pool till 6 plus.
Went home after that to have dinner.
And there goes another night.

150709`Wednesday <3

Happy 14th Birthday to me :D Haha.
Woke up three times in the early morning.
Had some really weird dreams and it was really really hot in the room.
Sigh, in the end had to increase the fan to the maximum speed.
Thanks to all who sent me all the heart-felt wishes and for all the presents.
I really really appreciate it and thank you ! :D
Hahs, really really love you guys !
Anyway, will thank them later in another post.

After school, slacked awhile.
Felt kind of tired that day too, hahs.
Went with love to some place ;D
Cabbed home after that, as I was gonna be late for dinner.
Mum cooked all my favourite dishes ! :D
Haha, at night, the whole family sang the birthday song and cut the cake.
So heart-warming, haha.
Thanks to parents for everything.
They say they're getting my present this Sunday, and that I can get anything I want :D
Haha, anyways, after that went to sleep early, as I was tired.
So tired these days, can't catch up on anything.
Memorable and the best brithday ever ! ♥

160709` Thursday ; Today.

School was super super tiring.
Or at least I was, I kept wanting to just close my eyes and sleep during the lessons.
But I didn't, hahs, as I wanted to listen or I'd be lagging behind again.

After school, slacked with love and the others.
Went home quite early, about three plus.
Tired tired tired ! =x
Almost missed my stop larh, as I was tired till I was sleeping on the bus.
Then just as the bus pulled into my stop, I suddenly woke up and quickly alighted.
Sigh, lucky me.
Or I would have to take all the way back again.
Came home, showered and came to check my mails already ;D
Its 1825 hours.
I should go off and get some rest before dinner.
Or I could revise some subjects for the upcoming tests.
Till then.
♥,xoxo.


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I keep waiting for you,
but you never come.

1243 hours.
Its Sunday. School starts tomorrow again.
Had tuition just now, felt so lethargic.
The teacher thought I was bored of the lesson, hahs..

Sigh, why am I feeling so down again !
I feel so idiotic and moronic with myself !
... Sigh, I shall end off here.
Oxymoronic.
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Why are this lights so bright,
did we get hitched last night.

I just finished skipping 200 times in the living room,
and also doing crutches and sit-ups.
Why the sudden motivation, I don't really know.
I think I was merely trying to distract myself.
I think my mind's getting out of control.

Its 1817 hours.
There's still hours to go for my motivation to come back :D
Hahs, I miss it.
Currently listening to Air Supply.
Got sick and tired of my new songs already.

I'm hungry, yet I'm not eating.
I'm such a klutz, I hit my knee on the dining table as I was sitting down again.
How many times must I injured myself, before realising that it actually hurts.
Sigh, motivation gone, I'm dead and empty.

Its been hours since I actually smiled, literally.
I don't know what to do now, except wait for time to pass.
Its the second post of the day, I must really be getting bored.
I'm still left with school's homework undone & untouched.
Guess I'll get it done tonight.

I shall go off here.
I'm trying to beat high scores in Typing Maniac on Facebook ;D
♥, xoxo.
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But you just smile and take my hand,
you've been there and you understand.

Its Saturday !
Four more days to my special day ;D
Haha, I'm anticipating it.

This Saturday, almost every Saturday, I wouldn't have anything much to do.
And I would feel bored and lost and empty.
Sigh, thinking about exercising and jogging, but I'm lazy =x
Needa wait for trainings again.
Swimming on Monday, kinda afraid the coach will scold again.
Sigh sigh, I feel kind of idiotic.

Short post, as I still have a tremendous load of homework to do.
Till here then.
I'm still anticipating it.
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Every long lost dream led me to where you are,
Others who broke my heart were like northern stars.

1802 hours.
Its Friday, and school's out.
The weekends are coming again, and I have tuition today.
I seem to be dreading tuition already, sigh.
Currently facebook-ing again.
Uploading my pictures, finally.

Stayed back with Atikah and others just now.
Bought Magee Mee from 7-11 and went back to school.
Asked around the canteen vendors if they have hot water.
But none of them have.
Then saw Mr Chew, and asked if he have.
And he said he did, and then he said we were even, because he owed me potato salad before.
Haha, he's so nice ;D
After that eat finish, played cards with Haziq and others.
Went home then, felt so tired on the bus.

School was...the same today, I guess.
Can't find the right word to describe it.
My leg's cured alr, so I kinda took the chance to keep playing ;D
Which reminds me, HANNAH WALKS LIKE A PENGUIN !! :D
Haha, we were all teasing her about it as she carried Rasyid's bag from the classroom today.
Awesome !

I should end off here.
I haven't read today's papers yet, and mum's asking me to.
And I'm not done uploading my photos yet, gotta hurry.
Till here then.
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For so long,
I've never felt this way.

1637 hours.
Its Thursday, the week's coming to an end again.
I don't know when, I'm going to realise that, time won't stop for just awhile.
My birthday's coming, in 6 days ;D
Haaaaaah, it seems like a constant reminder to myself.
I think on that day, I'll forget, like I forgot the date today.

School was...okay, I guess.
If not for the sharp poking pain at my leg, it would have been better.
My leg was bleeding profusely, after recess.
I din't even realise it, sigh.
The stupid pulse burst I guess, kind of like disgusting huh.
Haha, sigh, now I have to refrain to eat seafood for awhile now.

I can't post up the pictures from outings, which was ages already.
The laptop can't upload the pictures, and I happen to use the laptop everytime.
No netball this week, no swimming this week.
No exercising this week, sigh, gonna gain fat alr.

I think I shall end off here.
Tired of posting these already.
Sigh, sigh, stupid stupid leg.
Till then.
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I need a little more luck than a little bit,
cause everytime I get stuck the words won't fit.

I'm back from the tiring day.
My leg hurts alot, once more, once again.
It hurt till I couldn't hold back my tears just now, and just broke down.
And also, at the same time, the TV was playing a super super sad song.
Adding more dropping of tears.

Didn't went cycling in the end, Crys's parents and mine were late.
They went back to Crys's house around seven.
Making it super late for cycling alr, and it's a schoolday tomorrow.
Sigh, everyone was looking so much forward to it.
But the weather ruined every single plan that we could have on such a nice day.
Went for dinner at Crys's nearby house, as some of us were hungry.
Most of us din't want to eat, but kids rule.
We kept complaining and it works, so yeah ;D
Went home after that, and here I am.

I feel that I've been using the com too much, today. Today only.
Haaaaaaahs, which is both good and bad.
Sigh, I wanna read the book P.S. I Love You.
Read it at Crystal's house today.
Its sad and very very nice.
The guy is very very sweet, before he died, ( which he knew he would soon )
He wrote letters / notes and put them in envelopes dated for each month of the year.
And sent it to the wife, allowing her to resume with her life without him.
Haaaaaaahs, and it was very surprising too.
And at the end of each note/ letter, he wrote : P.S. I Love You.
<3

My birthday's coming, in nine days.
Hahs, I'm excited for this year, I guess.
I don't know why I'm excited to get older.
My parents are getting my hyped about my birthday occasion.
Crystal's Dad was like talking about plans abt my birthday over dinner just now.
Haha, its so cute to see the two dads bickering about what to bring over to our house,
and what not to bring.
Both of them are like kids lar.

I think I shall end off here.
Its 2150 hours.
Mum would be screaming at me if she knew I'm using any longer.
Till here then.
♥, xoxo.
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We'll linger on ,
time can't resist a feeling this strong.

Hey people :D
Currently at Crystal's house, and there's nothing to do,
so I decided to update my blog.
We're supposed to go for cycling, but because of the wet weather , we couldn't.
Ate buffet just now for lunch, at East Coast, The Tung Lok Seafood restaurant.
I ate till super super full lar :x
Haaaaaaaaaahs, joked and kid around.
Finally saw Twin, Crystal & Oxford xD
Haha, after that we were stuck at the restaurant there.
Slacked at the chairs, camwhored with Crystal.
Went off afterwards, impatient people xD
Haaaaaaaaahs, and here I am !

I'm bored. And I don't know if I should feel happy, or down.
Hahs, mundane. All the perfectly-planned plans are ruined.
Maybe there might be a chance in the evening though.

Alright, perhaps I should end off here.
There's nothing much to post right now.
Sigh, I would post again soon, if I get the chance to.
With the pictures taken today too.
Heeeeeeees ;D
Till then.

imissyouso.

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Can someone tell me what to say,
to just make you stay.

1248 hours, Sunday afternoon.
I'm bored, bored to the maxxxxx.
Decided to post, as the laptop is mine now.
Haaaaaaaaaaah, I've got simply nothing to do.
And so in return to my lack of updates over the past week,
I shall spam my blog with new posts of crap, though I doubt anyone would read ;D
Finished tuition just now, was super super high.
Make the whole class laughed with all my stupid jokes.
Of course, only some people know, that the more high I am, its all just a distraction.
My heart wasn't or doesn't really cooperate with the mood well.
Its all just merely a distraction.
Sigh, I thought that the happiness could last for long, last me throughout the day.
But I was wrong.
After around the first one and a half hours of being hyper, I started to quieten down.
And I felt all the sadness surround me, and I had the urge to cry.
It felt kind of ridiculous, and idiotic at the same time, but still.
Sigh, I really don't know what to do with myself.
Hah, all these are stupid mistakes I make in my life.
I screw everything up for myself, practically.
How ironic.

Its Sunday, the end of a week once again.
Probably going out today with family.
Don't know where we're going, and I doubt that Dad has any plans.
Sigh, I seem to be waiting for something that seem to be never ever coming soon enough,
to supress my sadness.
Ugh, this sucks. Now I'll just be waiting for all the misery to tug at my serrated wounds.

I wet my pillow with my tears last night,
when I could no longer have the breath to sigh.

Everytime I get stuck,
the words won't fit.

I try so hard,
to not make this fall.

But it didn't pull through,
after all.

What am I supposed to say,
if it could all end one day.

What would I do,
if everything comes undone once again.

Do I go back to where I once started,
and let the pain tug at the wound's serrated edge?


♥,xoxo.
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Bright cold silver moon,
Tonight alone in my room.

I'm addicted to Tongue Tied- Faber Drive.
The song fits pretty much the situation I'm in right now.
Its 2040 hours on a Saturday night.
I'm alone in my room, blogging once again.
I've got simply no other things to do.
No motivation for books, no motivation for fun.
Only motivation to keep my fingers flying across the keypad of the laptop as we speak,
and keep my mind going blank.
The Incredibles are on TV. Fiona's watching it.
I find the front part kind of boring, so I decided to kill my time here first.
Went to my house's void deck for a little walk today, alone.
Needed to the air, and the alone-time.
And also to buy some snacks to kill my hunger.
I've been eating the whole day, like a pig ;D
Sigh, if not for trainings and my own exercises, I think I would have been one.

Tried to upload the pictures that I've said I would post like a week ago.
The one on the outing with Lesmin and SiHui. But the pictures were uploaded,
but they never appeared on the post.
I shall try it tomorrow, after my early tuition in the early morning,
which reminds me that I can't sleep in late like today once again.
Never mind, I would still have Monday to sleep in late on.

I read Debbie's blog today.
And saw a quote of some kind, about love.
It's really really nice. I shall ask if I can post it on my blog too sometime later.
Its meaningful in a way, haha.

Its July. The forth of July.
I know that this is kind of late to say as its been four days past the first day of the new month.
My birthday's this month ! :D
Which is a good thing, because I get to do whatever I want on that day.
And which is also a bad thing, because I'll be turning a year older.
Haha, well, I guess it ain't so bad. This is life.
So I've got nothing unhappy and sad to vent about.
I think I can like guess Dad's present to me now.
Bringing me to eat buffet once again, and turning me fat.
Haaaaaaaaah, he loves to eat. I love to eat, everyone in my family loves to eat.
So it fits, yeah.
But I somehow wish he would just get me something he thought of besides bringing me to eat.
But its the thought that counts. And its better than nothing.
So I'll just take my chances.

I've officially finished Prison Break Season Four today.
The ending was... kind of sad.
I felt like crying, but was sort of holding back.
The ending was happy, yet sad.
Because of the death of some people, and the lives that changed of them.
Haaaaaaaaaah, and also, you get to see the mutual bond between all of them.
Wentworth Miller's hot, I agree, HAHA xD

I'm bored, bored, bored.
Besides listening to songs, blogging, facebook-ing, I've got nothing else to do here.
Haaaaaaaah, I want to watch movies ! :D
I've been anticipating for Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince, which is coming,
on the 16th of July, which is one day after my birthday :D
Haha, and I've also been anticipating for New Moon,
which is still like months away....
I hope that I can watch it in a way that I've been wanting to......
Haha, shush shush xD

I shall end off here, I guess.
I need to catch up on some homework, if I have the mood to do.
And also, watch the show with my sis.
So yeah, till here then.
Stoic heart.
♥, xoxo.
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Because everytime I try,
I get tongue-tied.

Heyyyyyyy people :D
My blog's rotting, haven't been updating over a week now.
Its a Saturday again ! Boring Saturday.
I'm still deciding how to spend today, as I'm going to be bored...
Sigh, I'm feeling tired and down right now.
Why why why. I'm supposed to be happy, hahs...

First week of school is already done and over with.
It has been so tiring and all.
I think I haven't suit to the waking up time yet, hahs...
I've been feeling oh so tired these days...
Currently listening to Tongue-Tied by Faber Drive.
Its very nice ;D
Dad just bought a new com to replace the spoilt one.
Haaaaaaaaaaaahs, which is the one I'm using right now.
So we have two nee coms, and a new laptop too :D
Haaaaaaaaaaaahs, seems like we don't have to argue for any computers right now.
I think its sufficient though there's like seven people in the family.

Monday's Youth Day.
Probably çamping' at home again, bored.
Doubt my parents would go out = to studying at home.
Sigh sigh, I feel no motivation of studying right now.
Kind of dread Friday's Math tuition though it gives me motivation, alot of motivation.
Kept checking the time yesterday, sigh.
Must be craving alot for sleep.
Felt so sleepy, but I'm looking forward to Sunday's tuition though.
I feel so carefree and happy there :D
Not that I don't on Friday, just that I don't know the two other people there.
And they're so quiet, so yeahhhh.

I just realised I'm skipping from topic to topic.
Okay, perhaps this isn't the time to post much.
Will update again, probably later in the day.
Later.
xoxo, ♥.
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