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♥ Florence, over-hyperactive. I (L) eating chocolates, and I'm a klutz,as well as a trouble-maker :D I'm fourteen, and July the 15th would be awesome. I love being cheeky and childish. That's the part of me that'll never grow up. I have a mind of a five-year-old and I love putting a smile on people's faces. So if you're down, I'm always here. Netball's my passion, and I'm loving it. I'm hoping for fairytales and miracles to happen ^^. I may be naive at times, but you can't cheat me. Currently attached with baby♥, and still counting on. I'm tremendously spontaneous and hyperactive most of the times. I love sweet things, they simply melt my heart. Equal Equation, L'ove.

I don't like you, 
                          I don't think I'll ever do. 

Dad's not talking to me. Figures, seeing that I should have pissed him off pretty badly today. Sigh, another burden added to my heart. And its so unlike him to give me a cold shoulder. I must have really hurt him pretty badly with my words today. Wrong choice of words, why do I always have a picky/stupid mouth? Then again, this is another mess I didn't plan. I admit, that I was a little harsh today, but I couldn't help it. My temper was flaring up with his unreasonable actions, and well yeah. Ugh, this screws everything up. Ire prematurely. This feels so wrong. I just feel like jumping into his lap and hugging him and saying that I'm sorry for all I've done today. I didn't mean to say...my feelings at him. He's...vulnerable. Like me, he gets hurt easily. But I hate to see that frown between his eyebrows, that smile wiped off his face. I hate to see him worrying about me so much. I'm sorry, but I do know that he cares alot for me. But he's being...a little overprotective. Mum always tells me that he's worrying about me all the time, and I can't do anything to cease that feeling, can I ?... Sigh. I've been trying very hard to show that, I do know how to take care of myself. Its not like, the moment I step out of the doorstep, I'll get kidnapped or raped, do I ? That thinking's kinda...off. Ugh, this is killing me. I hurt too. He told me once not to hurt him. But he doesn't THINK. If I DO actually hurt him, won't I be hurting myself first ? Won't I have this guilt or sadness tugging at my heart ? Life gets so hard. 

I spent the early hours in the morning crying my heart out. I just lied there in bed, with tears streaming down my eyes because of Dad and some other stuff.. We argued, over some pretty minor stuff that I don't think we should have. But we're both stubborn people, with stubborn brains, and no one would give in, so there you have it. I have realised that I was wrong in throwing my temper at him. Just because he's concerned at me. But I can't take it anymore. I've been trying very hard to control and simmer down my temper, anger, whichever it is. But I can't. That's the problem. 

Spent the early afternoon with L'ove. Spent $10 just to see him...for twenty minutes? Cabbed from house to there, and I'm officially broke again. Met him at his house, and he and his brother were watching Heroes. Haaaaaaahs, it was so funny. They were like kids yeah. And then, I went to play with the pig that I bought for L'ove, its so adorable. And L'ove was trying to hide from me the fact that he didn't forget to take her out of the cupboard. He has to hide it because of personal reason I shan't say, :D. Anyhooooo, we named the pigs, :D. Heees, he has two. So we want them to become our kids. So the other pig, which resembles a guy, is called Benji. The one I bought is called Flora^^v. Heees, awesomeeeeeee. Anyway, we left the house at one. Spent about a minute playing with his brother, asking him to say bye. Haaaaaaahs, he's so funny^^. Then I walked with L'ove to his tuition centre. We spent the time walking there, discussing/debating about the History SPQ worksheet, about the differences between Sources C & D. Haha, he's so cute. He doesn't wanna admit that I'm correct, =P . Then when we were reaching, he suddenly started saying all those sweet stuffs and all. Awwwwwwwwww, I was melting again, hahs, :D. 

After that, I went back to Kembangan to go to Godmother's house. She's still as pretty as ever^^. Though I feel kind of guilty of just meeting her for about 20 minutes before I have to leave for training again. Saw Shawn, he's as cuteeeee as ever. Haaaaaaahs. And Darren's getting more and more tan. Anyhooooo, went back to school for training after that. Argued with Dad on the phone again. Because of some dinner thing at Godmother's house. Ugh, heart kind of tearing. Resisted the urge of crying. Bunk-ed, head rushhhhhhh. Training was...okay, I guess. Well, I can't say its tough or anything, considering that the others had to fast, and I didn't. So yeahhhhh. Was super tiring and my leg was bleeding, and hurting like hell, so yeahhhhh.


After training, went to Bedok Macs. Man, rushed there like helllllll. Legs were almost cramping. Sat down, and waited for L'ove. He was in the toilet, and suddenly appeared behind me and placed a Urban Write plastic bag in front of me. Haaaaaahs, then I passed him his History book, and we went to our favourite happy place to hang out again^^v. He was so cute. After around 1855 hours, we started walking back to Bedok int. We got carried away, and he was late. And so was I. He spent the time walking back to Bedok Central, telling me how he was missing me every second and all those sweet stuffs. Awwwwwwwwww, haha. After that, he cabbed back, while I bus-ed. Reached home, was super tired. My legs were killing me then of too much running and rush-walking.

Alrights, I shall end off here now. Its almost 2200 hours and mum will start nagging again if I used the laptop for too longgggg. Shall go find something to kill time now. And probably...think of a way to apologise to Dad. I would probably just jump into his laps or something of the sort. Sigh. Life's a climb, but the view's great. 
♥,xoxo.

P.S/ Cause I need you like a heartbeat.
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