Its 1435 hours on a Sunday. An end to another weekend. I've just finished taking the Sec Three combination. Been thinking the whole morning, from the moment I woke up till about five minutes ago. Took SSG, had a very strong desire to take Full History. Talked to Kenny & Dad about it too, so yeah. They encouraged me to take whatever my heart desired to, and there. 

Gonna go out today, I guess. Its a family day. I'm gonna bug Dad to buy for me the bag I wanted all along today, if we do go to the place and that place sells it. Sigh. I'm feeling so emotional now. 

Like a heartbreak. I don't know why. Currently listening to Red, by Daniel Merriweather. There's no warmth in this room I'm sitting in. Everything perfect's being painted red, lost, and there's no sympathy, only lies. God, I need to get a grip. I'm losing it, seriously.

Its been raining since morning, been raining the whole day. My mood's been plunging down down down. I can't stop myself from tearing up. Its like I'm having some imperceptible... I don't know. I feel so screwed right now. I should not be thinking and having negative thoughts now. Its bad, real bad. That would probably cause another tiff or disaster and make things worse. I'd probably affect L'ove, or even, I think I already did. Sigh. I feel like such a failure. L'ove, I need you. But apparently, we both need a shoulder. I'm sorry. I didn't understand...your intentions then. Neither did I consider about your prerequisites. Of course, I do love you. You ought to really trust me. And now I do understand, where you're getting at. I'm sorry. I'll try to keep up, and keep the promises. But...I do have alot to keep. But still, I love you, as always...

Sigh. I'm lost, at the ends. I don't know what to say anymore. I should end off here. I've been trying to post for over an hour now, and have gotten nowhere. So yeah. Till next time.

♥,xoxo.