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♥ Florence, over-hyperactive. I (L) eating chocolates, and I'm a klutz,as well as a trouble-maker :D I'm fourteen, and July the 15th would be awesome. I love being cheeky and childish. That's the part of me that'll never grow up. I have a mind of a five-year-old and I love putting a smile on people's faces. So if you're down, I'm always here. Netball's my passion, and I'm loving it. I'm hoping for fairytales and miracles to happen ^^. I may be naive at times, but you can't cheat me. Currently attached with baby♥, and still counting on. I'm tremendously spontaneous and hyperactive most of the times. I love sweet things, they simply melt my heart. Equal Equation, L'ove.

This would probably be the second post of the day.
Just came back from tuition about 10-15 minutes ago.
Was very very distracted and happy at tuition just now.
What, with the company of people.
Practically, they're all guys yeah, so yeah.
We were all talking about nonsensical stuff with Benny.
Aw, he's awesome, seriously.

L'ove is out on some dinner right now.
It would have probably ended.
I didn't meet him, because I figured I wouldn't be allowed.
So yeah, we're probably meeting tomorrow.
Ah, I miss him.
And I just sent him like a long message venting about my life right now.
I'm a dirty mess, my life's...Not on the right track right now...
What am I really supposed to do ?...
Everything was alright, before YOU came along...
And I've been hidden from things for so long.
And you didn't tell me too...
How long were you intending to hide it from me?...
Sigh...Or did you felt that there wasn't a need to?..
Where did the compromise gone now...

To be frank, L'ove and I have been arguing over stuff...
Over YOU. I've cried over the stuff of YOU too.
I don't know how to face this anymore.
Should I escape from it, or should I face it?
Either ways, I'll never be happy.
I can't be holding hands between us three and saying everything's alright.
Everything I say or put on, on my face is fake now.
I have to ACT to be happy.
I have to ACT to say I'm fine.
I have to ACT to smile, and say everything's alright.
And mostly, I have to lie.
I hate lying to L'ove.
But he doesn't seem to be happy when I'm upset.
So I have to be.
Sigh, I really don't know what to do now.
How long will my new pretense last now?...
How long will my facade pull off?...

I promised myself, the last time, not to hurt anymore.
But I still did, & I still am.
Why does everything have to be so screwed?
L'ove, I really need you now...
But I don't know what to say...
Baby, how long will this last.

I shall probably end this here now.
Wanted to post a proper post of this whole week.
But it seems like I've lost the mood now.
I'm losing it, losing myself.
I gotta pull myself together...
Be strong.
L'ove, I need you.

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