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♥ Florence, over-hyperactive. I (L) eating chocolates, and I'm a klutz,as well as a trouble-maker :D I'm fourteen, and July the 15th would be awesome. I love being cheeky and childish. That's the part of me that'll never grow up. I have a mind of a five-year-old and I love putting a smile on people's faces. So if you're down, I'm always here. Netball's my passion, and I'm loving it. I'm hoping for fairytales and miracles to happen ^^. I may be naive at times, but you can't cheat me. Currently attached with baby♥, and still counting on. I'm tremendously spontaneous and hyperactive most of the times. I love sweet things, they simply melt my heart. Equal Equation, L'ove.

All we're doing now is building walls,
and now there's too many barriers.


1057 hours, Saturday.

Blogger's still not okay, I guess.
I doubt it'll ever be okay, if the people are even trying to fix it.
I know my blog's been dead, so yeah.
I haven't been using the com these days, so I can't really update yeahs.
Been staying out late in school these days, and reaching home late.
Either due to CCAs, swimming lessons, projects & stuff.
Shall start posting about the week I guess.

280709`Tuesday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATIKAH!
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE.

Had training today, Physical training.
Tiring like hell, did 2.4km, arm strength, Medicine balls, etc.
But I guess its better then last week. Didn't feel as tiring as before.
Think that my stamina has improved, in a way.
Anyways, got thoroughly wet after training.
Belated birthday splash.
The netball girls were chasing us around with their bottles and wetting us.
And Haziq and the other guys were dumping water on us too.
Changed afterwards, but didn't help much because our, insides were still wet.
And then the shirt had the water and stuff.
Bus-ed home with Azlan & Rasyid.
The two horniest asses I've ever seen.
Chatted, laughed, joked.
Reached home, was super tired already.
And had to bring the flour baby to and fro.
Hahs, I kinda care for her.
Her name's Xena, found the name unique =)

290709`Wednesday.

Something happened to Mistika on that day.
I regret it, seriously.
I know its my fault, but you and Zuhree just don't blame me.
Stayed back with L'ove in class to do up my Flour Baby.
Aw, it looks so cute after that !
L'ove's so sweet too, helping me bring and wrap her and stuff.
After that... Shall not elaborate.
Its a secret between, L'ove, Mistika and Zuhree xD
L'ove had to go off afterwards, so yeah.
Walked with Mist & Zuhree to the interchange.
Bus-ed with Mist home.
Reached home quite late, but was lucky.
Mum just stared at me, but after that, its okay.
Xena looks simply adorable in her made-up bed =)

300709`Thursday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN OR!
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE.

I miss my fringe, sigh.
Put it down on Wednesday, but I looked retarded.
I don't know how much longer must I put it up till it grows longer.
L'ove was debating with me about my hairstyle today.
He's so cute <3
Had training today.
Coach came. Trained skills.
And then played court games.
Think that we played quite well today.
L'ove tried to wait for my till my training ended, but he couldn't.
Thanks for trying anyway.
Went home, ate and studied.
Super tiring these days.
Have the urge to go swimming on Friday with Dad.

310709`Friday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARTIN NAI!
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE.

School was boring today.
Except for Literature.
Mistika, L'ove and my flour baby got selected by Miss Zhou.
Along with Amelia and Amanda's, and etc.
Hahs, so cute larhs.
Carried Xena down to her table and then went off with L'ove.
Came back to school at around 2 plus.
Cabb-ed back again.
L'ove was disappointed I guess.
Anyway, he had NCDCC after that, so I played Netball with Celine & Debbie.
Debbie went off after that, leaving Celine, me and Priscilla.
Played for awhile, and Atiqah & Siti came.
Played, slacked.
Then went off to KFC with Celine and Priscilla.
Ate, gossiped :D
Then after that, went home.
Had a fun time with them, hope that we can do it again =)

Reached home at around 1830 hours.
854 broke down on the way, but I took 325 back afterwards.
Luckily, it was just behind, or I'd be late for dinner.
After that, slacked, used the laptop.
Terrible stuff happened.
Calamity.
Sigh, finally cried on my bed, as I could no longer hold back my tears.
I think Arin, my mum and dad saw that my eyes were red.
I was trying to pretend to be normal.
But i couldn't.
Sigh, they saw through my pretense I guess.
I passed it off as though I was very tired.
Went to sleep early, couldn't sleep though.
Woke up dozen of times. Could not sleep.
I'm tired right now, but I don't want to close my eyes.
And see those images flashing across them again.


010809`Saturday.

August, a new month.
Will there be a new start ?
Three more days to Kenny's birthday.
I haven't bought a present for him yet.
I don't even know if I have money.
I know I do, but I want to buy this hundred-dollar over bag.
Dad's paying half for me too, so yeah.
I don't know what to buy for a guy like him too.

Will probably be stuck at home today.
I feel like going swimming, or going jogging.
Either one, I simply need distractions to rub off the pain.
So absent-mindedly, I'll forget for a couple of hours.
And continue my pretense in front of my family.
& when I'm alone, the pain would start rubbing in and start killing me.
Let it be, Let me be.
Let everything fall.
I need you, but you aren't here anymore.


I don't know what to say.
I don't know how I can hold on any longer.
We're trying and pretending so much, anyone can see through our pretense.
You're being so careful with your actions, I'm being so careful with my words.
Will this last ? Will we last ?
I want you to be happy. I haven't thought about what I'll be.
If I asked you to leave me, because it might make you happier, would you ?
Everything seem to be back where we started from, and I can't seem to face it.
I can't seem to face my heart, what its telling me to do right now.
I know that both of us is hurt, and its all already numb.
Is it tiring ? Was this meant to be ?
Do you regret, would I forget ?
Past,Present, Future.
Everything matters.
Baby, there's 7 days left, till a new start.
So what are we to do, with where we are standing now ?
Should we make a decision, or should we continue building walls ?
We're so used to pretending, will this be new ?
I really don't want this ending.
I don't want you to change.
I want you / us to be happy.
& Everything I've ever known, would be meaningful.
Because you were there.
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