♥ , Don't go.

Monday, May 18, 2009 @ 5:45 PM

empty promises .

Somewhere we went wrong ,
we were once so strong .
Our love is like a song ,
but you forgot .

1812 hours .
Monday .
Another long and tiring day .
Currently listening to Don't Forget by Demi Lovato .
Drumming my fingers on the keyboard in the process .
Racking my brains on what to post .
I'm feeling down .
I can't seem to laugh much, nay .
Mother Tongue Paper today , it was easy .
Nayyyyy , like I can get fantastic marks .
Well , I'm crossing my fingers and hoping I would .
Alright , I'm talking crap .

Didn't eat buffet today .
Went to Downtown East with parents instead .
Met Crystal , Charlene and her parents .
Went to Mr Chicken Rice .
What the hell , I ate three bowls of rice .
Dang it , dad kept pushing the leftovers to me .
Like I was a dustbin huh .
But anyway , I don't mind .
I was just eating to my content .
After that we went to the cafe opposite and they drank coffee and slacked .
I read the newspapers , didn't talk much .
Dad was talking about changing a new phone .
He could actually change two new phones .
Cause he used Singtel , and he didn't know ,
that he could change a new phone every one phone for free .
Well , hundred dollars free only .
So yeahhhhhh , after they drank the coffee .
I went to see the shop that was set up in the middle of the shopping centre .
Saw tests papers, those from mixed schools .
Then saw our school 's .
Wanted to buy , but apparently someone just took it ,
and asked her dad to pay for it .
I found it first , and wanted it .
But apparently , I was ignored , and to hell with it /her / it .
Whatever it is , well , I got really flared up .
Cause the thing was found by me , and someone just took it like I wasn't there .
I was looking and finding others .
And that particular person , is apparently someone I've known for years .
Ah , whatever . I don't know already .

The weather's nice today .
Somehow it's windy yet looking like it's going to rain anytime soon again .
I felt like going to the beach now .
Just sit by the coast till night .
I got so pissed and happy at the same time .
Dad tried to cheer me up by joking with me .
Through the whole car ride , I was trying & focusing on remaining a rigid face .
And of course , listen to the songs .
That sort of stopped me from laughing .
My lil sis is listening to Miley Cyrus's Hoedown Throwdown .
I feel like watching the movie in June though .
It seems nice , but I don't know .

I feel disppointed .
Somehow I feel like venting in a way ,
but if I do , that would make everything look bad .
Sort of well .
Ah , how I wish I could just fade away .
Pernicious , word of the day .
Dangerous , deadly .
Huh , this word could be used on me .
Deadly to my heart .
My tears , shed so many times .
I don't know how much is left to last me through my whole life .
Oh , that was a stupid thought .
Mundane day .

I can't make things better ,
I can't improve things .
I'm sorry .

It came to an end today .

Someday , I would find the perfect reason .
I hope .
I've been searching for so long ,
the answer to my heart .
You ignore like you don't read ,
so do I get your forgiveness ?
I'm sorry .

Break it ,
ILY ;