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♥ Florence, over-hyperactive. I (L) eating chocolates, and I'm a klutz,as well as a trouble-maker :D I'm fourteen, and July the 15th would be awesome. I love being cheeky and childish. That's the part of me that'll never grow up. I have a mind of a five-year-old and I love putting a smile on people's faces. So if you're down, I'm always here. Netball's my passion, and I'm loving it. I'm hoping for fairytales and miracles to happen ^^. I may be naive at times, but you can't cheat me. Currently attached with baby♥, and still counting on. I'm tremendously spontaneous and hyperactive most of the times. I love sweet things, they simply melt my heart. Equal Equation, L'ove.

I don't know, if I would lose you.
I don't know, if I should be content with what I had / have.
I don't know, if I should be happy or sad.
I don't know, if I would lose everything I have after this.
I don't know, if everything would still be the same, when this year's gone.
I don't know, which road to take, and where life would lead me to.
I don't know, if I can do things right, in the manner of right in a rightful way.
I don't know, if right now, these memories, can help me pull through long enough.
I don't know, if there would still be anyone there, when everyone's gone in different ways.
I don't know, if our friendships would still be the same, like how we are now.
I don't know, if I can take it again, if I get hurt badly once more.
I don't know, if I can control my feelings, and not try to hurt you.
I don't know, if I can contain my jealousy, and trying not to care over-ly too much.
I don't know, if I can make it to how we used to contemplate about the future.
I don't know, if all these things would really really come true.
I don't know, if I would lose the most important part of my life, after all this.
I don't know, if those sleepless nights would haunt me once again.
I don't know, if things would work out for me, for us.
I don't know, if what I face next year, might not be what I really expect.
I don't know, if I want this part in my life.
I don't know, if what I have, are meant to be kept.
I don't know, if I can keep all my friends together, and keep them close.
I don't know, if I can handle it if something goes terribly wrong again.
I don't know, if I might lose you in the new year to come.
I don't know, if history would repeat itself once more.
I don't know, if I can handle the pain, if you leave.
I don't know, if I can handle another painful year, and pretend like everything's okay.
I don't know, if I can take another year of pretense and tell people everything's fine.
I don't know, if I can do things like I believed and said I can.
I don't know, if my lies to protect the most important thing in my life, would be discovered.
I don't know, if my heart can take heavy blows again.
I don't know, if everything would be alright.
I don't know, if you trust me.
I don't know, if its all true.
I don't know, if I mean everything to you, as much as you do to me.
I don't know, if you know that everything I ever did, was from the bottom of my heart.
I don't know, if I really do have true friends.
I don't know, if I can really trust anyone, 'cause they lie again and again.
I don't know, if I really am stupid and gullible as I can be.
I don't know, if people actually do care.
I don't know, if I can do this again, as I've been doing for the past one year or so.
I don't know, if I can forgive as much, when the suspense's there.
I don't know, if I can make my parents proud.
I don't know, if my dad sees through me.
I don't know, if my dad rather believes my lies than hear the truth 'cause it hurts.
I don't know, if my second brother is ever going to be a good man.
I don't know, if my eldest brother is ever going to set foot on the right path in life.
I don't know, if I would lose my third brother soon, like I've 'lost' my two other older brothers.
I don't know, if I can keep going on.
I don't know, if I have enough new excuses to come up with to cover my lies.
I don't know, if I'm doing the right thing.
I don't know, if I can stand all the lies.
I don't know, if you'll always be mine.
I don't know, if my relatives are doing well.
I don't know, if I should say, that I have a half-broken family, or a full one.
I don't know, if things are supposed to be this way.
I don't know, if I can hold on.
I don't know, why I'm crying as I write this.
I don't know, if you'll always be my love.

But I do know this,
'cause this is the fact, I love you baby♥.



Why did you have to leave this world so early,
cause I really miss you badly.
I miss you, grandpa.
But you're gone...

Don't go away, say you'll stay.
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