♥ , Don't go.

Sunday, August 3, 2008 @ 8:24 AM

Okays,I've got seriously nothing to do.
So i decided to post.
Anyway,I jus nid entertainment & a shoulder to cry on.
But I guess its hard to get one.
I nid a listening ear too,
but no one at homes seems to care.
Home;
I dunno if it is already or not.
Thursday;
I got scolded by dad.
He said:
"Are u finding excuses not to come home?"
"Don wanna come home then don larhs."
I dunno if he's trying to mean it or not.
I couldn't feel the least.
Crying already doesn't mean anything.
Those tears jus drop,
my heart jus feel lyk a knife jus cut through,
but then all he could say aft he realised tat he was in the rong was,
"I'm sorry."
He was the one who didn't saw the msg I sent him,
then he say I nvr tell him where I go.
Lols.
Mum;
her mood is swinging.
Ytd at dinner she suddenly said:
"She doesn't wan me anymore.
She treats me lyk a ATM machine onli,
a buying stuff machine."
She was talking abt me,
I was thinking wad rong I did.
I didn't do anything rong did I?
Then she jus suddenly said this.
I don treat her as an ATM machine alright?
But aft all,
saying so much doesn't help,
they won't listen,
so there's no point rite?
I really feel vex over all this stuff.
Its a matter of trust alrights?
Its whether or not u trust me.
But I don think so,
aft all I've been through this few days.
I don even have a sense of security at home.

I'm probably seeing Crystal today.
I dunno if I should tell her this stuffs.
I mean she could have read,
but then she's nvr online.
She's got her own stuff,
I don wanna vex her wif mine too.
I don wanna drag her down.
Tsktsk,
I'm gonna go crazy alrdy.
Any moment.

8 more days;
I don wanna count on.
It passes so quickly.
I gonna make a decision.
Yet I dunno wad to do.
Listening to songs now,
trying to lift my spirits.
But those songs I chose were kind of down,
according to my mood,
so it doesn't have any effect.
I really wish tat time could stop,
I don wanna leave,
I don wanna stop.
I jus wish time could stop.
I wan everything to be the same,
but I'm wishing in vain.
I can't jus avoid and turn away.
I don wanna hurt anyone,
but I'm hurting myself.
And I think I'm dragging you down too.
I'm so sorry.
I'm jus an idiot.
I can't control all this things from happening,
and u were innocent,
but somehow u got involved.
U're gonna be a councillor,
perhaps next year.
Maybe I shouldn't drag you.
I can't be so selfish...
I dunno wad to do!

Love is a thing you can't avoid;
Love is a thing you can't decide.
Love is a thing you can't ignore,
Love is a thing,it can't be solved.
Its easy to love,
yet hard to leave,
when the frenship is jus in between.

Love is a thing you can't recall,
Love is a thing tat can't be lost.
Loving a person is hard,
Loving a person is lyk "oh,shucks."
Love can be a wonderful thing,
but sometimes it can be a pain.
Boy;I love you.
Yet,I dunno wad to do.
The feeling is there,
the love is strong.
But it is hard,
to break this freaking storm.

Boy;I really love you.
But they are hard to please,
when telling them the truth is lyk a perfect dream.
Sometimes I wish life was perfect,
without a sound in every perspect.

Could I possibly let go,
when I jus love you so?
Could I possibly turn and leave,
when its already four months and a week?
Could I possibly let the feeling go,
when I noe tat its lyk gold?
I've been giving all along,
I've been taking all along too.
Perhaps this is jus fate?
Or is it fake?
Is this an illusion,
or is it not.
I'll find myself waking,
to make to pain stop?

Will all this be gone in a day,
or should it stay till it breaks?
Its hard to tell right from wrong,
when I'm blinded all along.
Boy; I don wanna leave.

But wad should I do?
Crying isn't gonna solve anything,
it only turns everything into a twinge.
I feel terrible,
lyk all the happiness is draining out of me.
Will this storm ever peace,
and its so hard to please.
Maybe stopping will cause the pain,
but maybe it will cease the claim.

But boy,
the feeling is strong.
How can I jus say bye?
I love you,
& our love is lyk a metal stick.
Its unbreakable,
ain't it?
Boy;I love you,
I really do.
But wad am I supposed to do?
I gotta leave but I'll miss you.
Boy;I can't leave.
I really can't bear.
This is a feeling hard to share.
Boy;I nid you,
& I love you so.
--I'll stay by ur side--
I dunno if they can take it,
but its a risk.
This love is strong,
so we'll take up the risk.
So I'll keep loving you,
till the last drop.
Boy;
I love you,
I always do.

You're one in a million.
-I miss you-